haveanyone to cater it, so they paid the funeral home extra for us to take care of the accommodations. So we always just come down here and get the chicken. Itâs easy and everybody likes it,â he explained. âWhat you up to?â
âJust trying to get a job.â I pointed to the application that I had literally only filled out my name on, so far.
âWhere, here?â
âYes sir.â
Mr. Ray stood there for a second and gave me a once-over, as if he was upset that I was trying to work in Cluck Bucket. As far as I was concerned, it was an honest gig. I figured it was probably tough at times, but still, honest. Plus, I figured I could maybe learn what the secret to some of that fried deliciousness was so that I could take it back to my own kitchen. Maybe make those biscuits for me and my dad one day.
âMatthew, if you work here, youâll never be able to eat here again,â he finally joked.
I didnât really think that was true. I mean, certain things you just never get tired of. Cluck Bucket, for me, was definitely one. Thatâs like saying that if I wouldâve gotten that job working at the bank, I wouldâve eventually gotten sick of money. Yeah, right. Not that Mr. Ray was wrong. I just couldnât see it. But I didnât say nothing. Just shrugged.
âListen. Your mother was a friend of mine. And your father still is. If you need a job, Iâll pay you a couple of bucks to help me out down at the funeral home. I mean, I heard they pay pretty good in this crap shack, but Iâm sure I can get close, and you wonât have tocome home smelling like deep-fried fat every night, or put up with these knuckleheads. What you think?â Mr. Ray inched his jacket sleeve up just enough to see his watch, which he twisted around so that the gold face was on the top of his wrist. âUnless,â he said low, his eyes still on the time, âyou got a thing for hairnets.â
Funny. Real funny.
I thought for a moment. Mr. Ray was definitely a friend of my folks. He was the one who talked to my mother about the chemoÂtherapy, and what that would be like. He said he didnât know much about breast cancer, but he did know that ice cream is the secret to feeling better when the treatment makes you feel sick. As a matter of fact, Mr. Ray was there the day my mom was taken to the hospital, the day she left home for good. He helped my father get her down the steps because she refused to let the EMT guys put her on a stretcher.
âI ainât no princess and I ainât no baby, so I donât need to be carried nowhere,â she had snapped as Dad and Mr. Ray held her up by her arms and eased her down the stoop, one painful step at a time.
Dad cracked a joke about her being a queen. âDamn right!â she replied, and Mr. Ray was right there to cosign.
âThe queen of your house, this block, Bed-Stuyâhell, Daisy, you the queen of all of Brooklyn!â Mr. Ray joked. âAnd guess what? Your throne will be right here waiting for you when you come home.â
She never came home, but we appreciated Mr. Rayâs positivity. He was always that wayâa good guy. And even though I trustedhim, did I really want to work at the funeral home with him? I mean, it wasnât him I was worried about. It was just the whole death thing, and the fact that I would have to be around sad people all the time. Losing my mom was already damn near too much for me to deal with, so being around a bunch of strangers dealing with the same crap just seemed like hell.
But the way Mr. Ray was talking, hell paid pretty good. And even though I didnât buy the whole âYou wont be able to eat hereâ crap, I didnât want to risk it. But still, I didnât know if I could really do it. A funeral home?
âThanks Mr. Ray,â I said, tapping the ink pen on the application. âBut I donât think I can do that. Itâs