Rose.
“Oh! Oh, no.”
Rose squeezed her sister’s hand. “She may yet live. Have a bit of hope.”
“The baby? What of her baby?”
“The boy is healthy. Didn’t you hear him howling in his crib this morning?”
Aurnia settled back against the pillow with a sigh, and the breath she exhaled carried the fetid odor of death, as if already her body was rotting from within, her organs putrefying. “There’s that small blessing, then.”
Blessing? That the boy would grow up an orphan? That his mother had spent the last three days whimpering as her belly bloated from childbed fever? Rose had seen far too many such
blessings
over the past seven days. If this was an example of His benevolence, then she wanted no part of Him. But she uttered no such blasphemy in her sister’s presence. It was faith that had sustained Aurnia these past months, through her husband’s abuse, through the nights when Rose had heard her weeping softly through the blanket that hung between their beds. What good had faith done poor Aurnia? Where was God all these days as Aurnia labored in vain to give birth to her first child?
If you hear a good woman’s prayers, God, why do you let her suffer
?
Rose expected no answer, and none was received. All she heard was the priest’s futile murmurings from behind the curtain hiding Bernadette’s bed.
“In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Ghost, be there quenched in thee all power of the devil, through the laying on of my hands, and through the invocation of the glorious and holy Virgin Mary, Mother of God.”
“Rose?” Aurnia whispered.
“Yes, darling?”
“I’m greatly afeard ’tis time for me as well.”
“Time for what?”
“The priest. Confession.”
“And what small sins could possibly trouble you? God knows your soul, darling. Do you think He doesn’t see the goodness there?”
“Oh, Rose, you don’t know all the things I’m guilty of! All the things I’m too ashamed to tell you about! I can’t die without—”
“Don’t talk to me of dying. You can’t give up. You have to
fight
.”
Aurnia responded with a weak smile and reached up to touch her sister’s hair. “My little Rosie. Never one to be afraid.”
But Rose was afraid. Terribly afraid that her sister would leave her. Desperately afraid that once Aurnia received the final blessing, she’d stop fighting and give up.
Aurnia closed her eyes and sighed. “Will you stay with me again tonight?”
“Surely I will.”
“And Eben? Hasn’t he come?”
Rose’s hand tensed around Aurnia’s. “Do you really want him here?”
“We’re bound to each other, himself and me. For better or worse.”
Mostly for worse,
Rose wanted to say, but held her tongue. Eben and Aurnia might be bound in marriage, but it was better that he stayed away, for Rose could scarcely abide the man’s presence. For the past four months, she had lived with Aurnia and Eben in a Broad Street boardinghouse, her cot squeezed into a tiny alcove adjoining their bedroom. She had tried to stay out of Eben’s way, but as Aurnia had grown heavy and weary with pregnancy, Rose had taken on more and more of her sister’s duties in Eben’s tailor shop. In the shop’s back room, cramped with bolts of muslin and broadcloth, she had spied her brother-in-law’s sly glances, had noticed how often he found excuses to brush against her shoulder, to stand too close, inspecting her stitches as she labored over trousers and waistcoats. She had said nothing of this to Aurnia, as she knew Eben would certainly deny it. And in the end, Aurnia would be the one to suffer.
Rose wrung out a cloth over the basin, and as she pressed it to Aurnia’s forehead, she wondered: Where has my pretty sister gone? Not even a year of marriage and already the light had left Aurnia’s eyes, the sheen gone from her flame-colored hair. All that remained was this listless shell, hair matted with sweat, face a dull mask of surrender.
Weakly, Aurnia lifted