grandfatherâmy own heroâin his G.I. helmet.
We sat, wordless, atop a low rock wall for several minutes, feet dangling over the Vézère River.
âThank you for sharing that story,â I eventually said.
âThank you for come today,â Roland replied, in English.
I didnât correct him.
Kimberley Lovato is a freelance writer based in San Francisco. Her writing has appeared in
National Geographic Traveler, Afar, Delta Sky Magazine, Executive Travel
, and in other print and online media. Rolandâs recipe for tomato-basil sorbet appeared in her mailbox a month after their meeting and can be found on page 123 of her culinary travel book,
Walnut Wine &Truffle Groves
, which won two awards in the category of Culinary Travel: the 2010 Cordon dâOr International Culinary Academy Award, and the 2010 Gourmand International World Cookbook Award. Her website is www.kimberleylovato.com .
ANN HOOD
The Runaway
Can grief be outrun?
W hen the SUV I took from the train station to my hotel in Lhasa last January got blocked by two men haggling over a yakâs head, I had one thought:
I could not be farther away from my little red house in Providence, Rhode Island
. Iâd had that thought beforeâon a starlit night on an island in the middle of Lake Titicaca; on a crowded street in Phnom Penh as a man clutching an AK-47 strolled past me; on a boat in the Mekong River bumping against other boats loaded with jackfruit, mangosteen, and durian. The realization that I am somewhere removed from life as I know it, somewhere no one can reach me, where I canât read menus or street signs and where the very air I breathe smells different, brings me a strange comfort.
Ever since 2002, when my daughter Grace died suddenly at the age of five from a virulent form of strep, I have had the desire to flee. At first, I wanted to sell our house and moveâto Oregon, to Italy, to the moon. It didnât matter where. What mattered was that I leave the familiar rooms and streets where Graceâs footsteps now echoed louder than they had when she was alive. Our kitchen floor still had glitter on it from the art project she never finished. In the corner of one room I found her ballet tights rolled into a ball, still smelling of the mild stink of her feet. In her bedroom, wrappers from forbidden candy she had sneaked nestled in drawers. When I stepped out the front door, when I walked down the street, I could still see her dashing ahead of me in her metallic purple sneakers, her big brother, Sam, at her side. âStop at the corner!â I could hear myself shout. I had worried about a speeding car careening down one of the alleys that line our neighborhood when I should have been dreading a microscopic, deadly bacterium. How foolish the panic in my voice seemed now.
After Grace died, I wanted to run away, to go somewhere mysterious and distant. Surely, I thought, there were places in the world where I would not be haunted. I had been a nomad of sorts for most of my adult life. Looking back, perhaps I have always been running away. From a small-town childhood. From broken heartsâmy own and those I broke. From loneliness and a restlessness that has bubbled in me for as long as I can remember.
My father used to tell me stories about his years in Peking (Beijing) in the late 1940s. People dropped dead from starvation right at his feet, he said. There were dark rooms where men gambled. Women still had bound feet and limped down the street behind their husbands. He told me how heâd skied in Greece and scuba dived off the coast of Haiti. He ate dog in Morocco and got bit by a mongoose in Cuba. Perhaps it is no surprise then that at the age of sixteen, I took the $500 Iâd earned in two years of modeling for the local department store, Jordan Marsh, and flew to Bermuda, where I snorkeled and drank rum swizzles and lay on a beach of pink sand. With the next yearâs savings, I flew to Nassau