double standardsâeven if there shouldnât be. Women are still scarce in this agency.â
DANA HAD ALMOST C ALLED MAC BACK to pick her up at her apartment instead of the office, knowing it would be faster and closer for them. But she loved her job too much to risk it. Maybe if it had been anyone but Mac, she wouldnât have given it a thought either.
With Mac, she had to go out of her way to avoid the appearance of anything more than friendship. It would be far too easy to fall back into the kind of relationship sheâd had with Mac before. Theyâd dated back in college, and if she were completely honest with herself, sheâd admit her feelings for him were even stronger now than theyâd been back then. Sadly, their lives had taken separate paths. Sheâd been thrilled when theyâd met up again some months ago when Mac began his first homicide case as a detective with the Megan Tyson murder.
Maybe someday there would be an opportunity for them, but not now. Not with both of them so new to the detective arena. Not with walls that have eyes and ears and fellow workers who already teased her and Mac about being more than partners.
âThere are several female detectives in our outfit,â Mac said. âIâll bet they wouldnât worry about whether their male partners picked them up. Take Jan Adams in the arson section. Sheâs top notch; nobody ever gives her any flak.â
Dana nodded. âJanâs been in detectives since you and I were in high school, Mac. I bet she had her share of hurdles tooâmore than I do. Women are finally being accepted into the good old boysâ group.â
âI donât know. I canât imagine anyone messing with Jan; sheâs like your grandmother and Dirty Harry combined. I donât know how someone so sweet could be so tough at the same time.â
Dana laughed. âIâll ask her for you tomorrow and tell her how much you admire her.â
âWhat?â
âDonât worry, Iâll leave the Dirty Harry reference out. Though personally, I think thatâs the best part.â
âYouâre meeting with Jan? Why?â Mac glanced over at Dana. His eyes held a hint of concern and hurt. Heâd been mentoring her and doing a pretty decent job, but she needed a womanâs perspective.
âJan and I are meeting for lunch. I wanted to go over a few things. Sergeant Evans suggested itâmainly so we can get to know each other. If nothing else, maybe she can help me shop for some functional detective clothes that look halfway decent.â
âWhat about me? Iâm your partner,â Mac asked jokingly. âWhy not let me help spend your clothing allowance?â
âYou mean the eight hundred dollars the department gives us to buy two yearsâ worth of professional attire?â
âWhat? Isnât that enough for you?â
âI can spend that much on shoes alone.â She lifted her foot and inspected her thick-heeled shoe. âHave you shopped for womenâs clothes lately?â
âCanât say that I have.â
âMac.â Dana turned serious. âWe talked about our relationship when I made detective and you said you were okay with being friends and nothing more. I know you havenât asked me out or anything since then, but Iâm still sensing this thing from youâI donât know . . .â
âAttraction?â
âHmm.â She ran her hand along the seat belt. Unfortunately, she felt more than an attraction for him.
âItâs not something I can turn off. Iâm sorry if Iâm making you feel uncomfortable.â
âIâm sorry too, Mac. For now, we canât . . .â
âDonât worry about it. Just so you know, I am not sitting around waiting for you to change your mind. Iâm moving on.â
âYou are?â That wasnât what Dana wanted to hear. She wished sheâd kept her