away. Francesca was the first person who meant something to me. But when I met Rose, it was different. She shined brighter than the sun, making every other woman become blurred in the shadows. She wasn’t just the next one.
She was the one.
“I just…so many lies.”
“None of them were malicious.”
“I just can’t believe that entire time you knew. Now I understand why you were so gentle with me, why you didn’t think my behavior was odd. I feel stupid for not figuring it out sooner.”
My hands were still shaking by my sides.
“Now everything was a lie. Everything was nothing like it seemed.”
“That’s not true,” I whispered. “Everything was real—whether I knew or not.”
“I can’t trust you.”
That hurt more than anything else . “Yes, you can. You can trust me more than anyone.”
She pulled out the kitchen chair and sat down, unable to stand on her own two feet anymore. “I want you to leave.”
“I’m not going anywhere.” I wasn’t leaving this apartment until we settled our differences.
She rested her elbows on the table with her face pressed into her hands. “I can’t do this…”
“Yes, you can.” I pulled out the chair and sat beside her but restrained myself from touching her.
“I just don’t feel the same way anymore.” She didn’t pull her hands away. “Nothing is what I thought it was. And then you slept with me without telling me you know…and then you’re the attorney on the case. I feel like I was in a dream and now I’ve finally woken up.”
I felt sick . “Rose, no.”
She finally pulled her hands down, revealing her wet tears. “It’s just not the same anymore. I don’t trust you. I feel like I’ve been played—played hard.”
“That’s not how it was—”
“But that’s how I feel.”
“Rose—”
“Just go…” When she blinked more tears emerged. “If I’d known you’d known I wouldn’t have slept with you. So I feel like I was tricked into doing something I wouldn’t have done otherwise. And that’s something you can never take back.”
I couldn’t believe this was happening. I wanted to argue she did the same thing to me when she didn’t tell me the truth. But in my heart, I knew she was right. “I love you. That’s something that’s never changed. That’s real and true—always.”
“I believe you…”
Finally, some hope . “Then give me another chance.”
“That’s not possible. You can’t have a redo in a situation like this. It just can’t be done.”
“That’s not fair…”
“I know it’s not.” She sniffed and wiped her eyes with a napkin. “But that’s how it has to be.”
I felt my hands shake on the table, feeling the pain shoot all the way down to my stomach. Everything hurt. It was a new realm of pain.
“I really did love you, Kyle. But this isn’t something I can get over. This isn’t something I can move past. It changes everything—changes us.” She clutched the tissue against her lips, the tears sliding down her cheeks. The apartment suddenly felt cold, like all the joy, hope, and love had been sucked out of it.
Or maybe it was just sucked out of me.
On My Own
Kyle
I’d been depressed a lot in my life, but this had to be the worst. I lost Rose over something I couldn’t control. No matter what action I took, it was the wrong one.
And that was unfair.
I hoped taking a step back would give her time to calm down and see reason. Or maybe it would give her enough time to realize that she loved me and couldn’t live without me—the same way I felt about her.
When I pursued her, the wound was still fresh. She was bleeding all over the place, trailing it everywhere she went. Giving her time to heal was the smartest move right now.
I had to keep my distance.
In my heart, I knew she would come back to me.
The case was my priority at the moment and I couldn’t lose my focus. Not only did Rose’s justice sit on the line—but so did Audrey’s. There were other victims