his face, round and pale as the moon but with small, cold eyes. It looks as if the manâs spirit has been nearly pinched out of him, which is what James says about his own spirit on days he canât bear to be human anymore.
âYouâll vex him,â she says.
âWhereâre you from?â Dunn asks. âThe way you talk is strange.â
How to answer? She speaks like James. The officers are the strange-sounding ones. Dawg . Tawk .
âHow âbout you radio the station, Frank?â Nolan nods toward the door. âLet âem know whatâs up.â Officer Dunn leaves.
Miranda climbs the stairs and hurries down the hallway to Cian, whoâs rattling the bars of his cot and bleating.
âMandy!â he cries, his mouth pitifully distorted. He stands in his cot, hiccuping little sobs. A sodden nappy rings his ankles. Ammonia from it and others in a nearby bucket stings Mirandaâs eyes. Cianâs fair hair is sweaty, his wee organ an angry red from rash. When James left yesterday, he said heâd return with the ingredients for a healing salve.
âMandyâs here, poor biscuit.â
If she had the ladâs trusting nature sheâd chance opening a window in hopes of a cooling breeze. If she didnât fear exhausting the drinking water, sheâd bathe Cian and launder his nappies. Fear is the mortalâs curse, James says. Look at me, so dreadfully afraid of losing you. She lifts the slight child, shaking the wet nappy from his feet. She carries him down the stairs.
Nolan peers up from a notepad. His eyebrows lift. In surprise? Dismay? For a moment Miranda forgets to wonder why heâs here. Perhaps he isnât. Itâs easy to imagine herself, James and Cian as the only souls alive.
She heads for the burgundy horsehair sofa in the library. As she sits, dust motes rise in a slow dance and drift back down. She drapesCian across her lap and wriggles one arm free of the petticoat. He clamps his mouth on her breast and wraps a spindly arm about her waist. His head is warm and damp in the crook of her arm.
Nolan remains in the entryway. To see him, Miranda would have to wrench her head around. âSo the child is yours?â he asks. âYou look too young.â
In three years, when sheâs eighteen, nobody can wrest her from James. She will stand beside him under a ceiling of stars while he invokes the mighty ones. When sheâs eighteen, sheâll venture out on her own for Cianâs earthly needs. James wonât have to bring her lilacs each spring. Sheâll seek them where they grow and drown her nose in their drunken scent. Sheâll lie on soft grass, garbed in gossamer and sunlight. She will climb Merlinâs oak tree and Heidiâs mountain, row a boat down the enchanted river behind the house, tread on hot sand and sing as boldly as she wants without worrying someone will hear. She and Nicholas will lope over carpets of dandelions as they do in her dreams. Lope is a word she likes to say out loud for the way her tongue starts it off before disappearing behind her lips.
âYou say you have news?â
âYes.â
She hears him inhale deeply, hears his belt jangle as he shifts weight from one foot to the other. âMr. Haggerty died on the three-forty-two from Penn Station yesterday,â he says.
âWhatâs a three-forty-two?â
âYou serious?â When she doesnât answer, he says, âA train.â
âDid he jump?â
âWhy would you even think that?â He jangles again.
âAnna Karenina did.â
âWho?â
âA woman in a book.â The longest sheâs ever read, one James challenged her to get through, hoping to seduce her from the youthfulfantasies she prefers. â But truly, truly, itâs not my fault, or only my fault a little bit ,â she says aloud, trying to say it daintily like Anna.
Nolan releases a short, tuneless whistle and