dogâs tags and a man with a pick-up truck came shortly after to pick the dog up. Some-day I hope my wish does come true. For now though I will have to keep dreaming. Good night! Erin
MARCH, 1997 11:30 A.M. This month has been sad. Mrs. Day is leaving and I have really grown to like her. She gave me her address to write her. Then my friend Kristin got a chocolate Labrador puppy. It was so cute and made me upset that my parents wonât let me have a dog. Spring break is almost here and my Aunt Mary wants me to watch David and Jake for her. Brian and Jeff are too busy with their older guy friends to watch the boys. I really enjoy it though. I stopped over at my Aunt Maryâs every day after school. She is always stopping me after school and asking me to help her out. Since our house is on the same path I walk right past it every day before and after school. Another thing I am dealing with right now is my vision. I have an eye problem that is making me go blind. I see different eye doctors who specialize in my situation. It isnât a fun experience at all. Well, I am going to a garage sale with Allie and Emily, then we are having a sleep over. Erin
APRIL, 1997 9:35 P.M. It wasnât a dream. What happened at Grandma and Grandpaâs condo seven months ago in fact did happen. It happened again today, but this time I wasnât sleeping. I was fully awake and alert. Iâm so scared right now. My eyes are filled with tears and I donât know whom to turn to. I was babysitting Brianâs younger brothers David and Jake. My Aunt Mary was going to the store for groceries. She told me she would be gone an hour. I began playing âhide and go seekâ with David and Jake like I do most of the time when I baby sit. Brian came home when David was counting. I was about to hide when Brian told me he had an excellent hiding spot. He told me to follow behind him. I didnât think once about what happened in Wisconsin. I tried blocking that all out back when it happened. I followed Brian downstairs to the basement to a door, which brought us to this storage area where you had to crawl. Brian climbed up and then helped me. There was a lot of stored items down there. Brian grabbed blankets and told me to hide under them. I went under the blankets by myself. About a minute or two later Brian crawled over and was under the blankets with me. I was a little nervous when he got under the blankets. I could hear David upstairs walking around looking for us. Brian slowly started to touch me. I didnât say anything at first, but then he started to get aggressive by putting his mouth on mine and trying to kiss me. I tried pushing him off, but he then just got on top of me and he is twice my size. He lay on top of me and started to touch me. Slipping his hands down my pants and all I wanted to do was cry. Over and over I asked him to please stop. I was terrified and couldnât believe what was happening to me. His hands slipping down my pants and up my shirt. His heart pounding against mine. We then heard David opening the door to the storage area. Brian told me to get quiet. I wanted to scream, but didnât want David to see anything even though it was extremely dark. I donât think David would be able to understand nor see what was happening. I heard David turn around and make his way back upstairs while Brian continued to touch me. It went on until we heard my Aunt Maryâs high heels on the tile floor above us coming in. Brian quickly made his way to exit and left me by myself. I came up a few minutes later where I saw David sitting with Jake watching cartoons. David looked at me and said, âWhere were you this whole time?â I didnât know what to say so I didnât say anything at all. My Aunt Mary paid me and I walked home. The whole way home I sobbed. Over and over in my head I thought about what just happened. In school once we had a guy called Officer Friendly come in and teach