it? Or, um... was..."
Sex? I mean, that's a pretty good reason to be alone, but I'm not sure that's what he planned, either.
"Nah, that's not it," Ethan says, smirking at me. "Pretty fucking amazing, though, right? You're always pretty fucking amazing, Princess."
I laugh and blush, burying my head in the crook between his neck and his shoulder. "Shush, you," I say.
We're quiet for a moment, just holding each other, reveling in the afterglow of our mutual orgasm.
"I'm going to tell him," Ethan says after awhile. "That's what I wanted to talk to you about. I'll go with my dad and I'm going to tell him about us. I don't know exactly when. I'll figure it out. It's going to be really fucking hard for me, Princess. I'm going to do it, though. I just wanted you to know, that's all. When we come back, he'll know, and then everything will be fine."
I'm not sure if that's true. I understand what he means, and I know that he's probably doing this because of Caleb catching us in the woods earlier, but what about the rest? Everything might be fine in regards to Caleb, but it might be really bad as far as Ethan's dad is concerned.
"Everything will be fine," I tell him, kissing his cheek softly. "I know your dad will understand."
"Yeah... I sure hope so."
We kiss, really kiss. This isn't a kiss for any specific reason, it's just a kiss because we love each other. I know he loves me and he knows I love him, and it's as simple as that.
At least it's as simple as that for now. I'm not sure if it's going to stay that way, or for how long, but whatever happens, I know we can push through it.
*** Ethan
Holy fuck. Seriously, fuck. Fucking, fucking... fuck.
I've done a lot of stupid shit before. I can own it and accept it. I mean, yeah, sometimes it seemed like a good idea at the time, but maybe in a good bad idea kind of way, right? It's not a good thing to do, but you do it thinking you won't get caught. What's the worst that can happen?
This is not even close to that. This is just a really good idea, but I don't want to do it at all. I think that makes it a bad good idea. It's one of those things that you know is the right thing to do, but you just really don't want to do it. Yeah, well, that's life, isn't it? What the fuck do I know?
My dad and I eat a quick lunch with Ashley and her mom. Nothing crazy here, just sandwiches and chips. It's nice hanging out by the lake. Not a lot of people come this way. They go to the river more, but even then it's a lot further up, by where the rocks have been shaped into natural slides and there's little pools you can hang out in. That's where the jumping spot is, too. Honestly, it's pretty fucking awesome there. You can jump off this thirty foot cliff into a pool of deep water, and it's just a huge rush.
I kind of feel like I'd rather jump off a three hundred foot cliff into a shallow pool of water than tell my dad about how I'm dating Ashley now, but whatever. There's no cliffs that high around here that I know of, and telling my dad is just something I have to do. I'll figure this shit out.
I hope we go for a long hike. A really really fucking long hike. I'm going to need some time here. I don't know how long. I'll figure it out as I go. That's mostly how I do everything, but usually it seems easier than this.
"You boys have fun, alright?" my stepmom says to me and my dad after we're done eating.
"Don't get into too much trouble!" Ashley says, winking at us.
My dad flexes, putting on a show of outdoor manliness or something. I just nod and smile and try to act normal, but I'm pretty sure it doesn't work. No one says anything, though. Ashley smiles at me.
Maybe I'll just go over right now and kiss her. Fucking... pull her in my arms and grab her ass, lift her up, and kiss her hard. That's a good way to tell my dad, right? If he doesn't get it after that, I don't know what to say. Actions