with them in the seventies.â
âWhy?â Essie asks.
âThey wanted me to stay at the BBC, and stay in news, and I was much more interested in moving to ITV and into documentaries. Eventually my contact said heâd out me as a homosexual unless I did as he said. I wasnât going to be blackmailed, or work for them under those conditions. I told him to publish and be damned. Homosexuality was legal by then. Annette already knew. It would have been a scandal, but thatâs all. And he didnât even do it. But I never contacted them again.â He frowned at Essie. âI was an idealist. I was prepared to put socialism above my country, but not above my art.â
âI knew it,â Essie says, smiling at him. âI mean thatâs exactly what I guessed.â
âI donât know how you can know, unless you got records from the Kremlin,â Matthew says. âI didnât leave any trace, did I?â
âYou didnât,â she says, eliding the question of how she knows, which she does not want to discuss. âBut the important thing is how you feel now. You wanted a better world, a fairer one, with opportunities for everyone.â
âYes,â Matthew says. âI always wanted that. I came from an absurdly privileged background, and I saw how unfair it was. Perhaps because I was lame and couldnât play games, I saw through the whole illusion when I was young. And the British class system needed to come down, and it did come down. It didnât need a revolution. By the seventies, Iâd seen enough to disillusion me with the Soviets, and enough to make me feel hopeful for socialism in Britain and a level playing field.â
âThe class system needs to come down again,â Essie says. âYou didnât bring it down far enough, and it went back up. The corporations and the rich own everything. We need all the things you hadâunions, and free education, and paid holidays, and a health service. And very few people know about them and fewer care. I write about the twentieth century as a way of letting people know. They pick up the books for the glamour, and I hope they will see the ideals too.â
âIs that working?â Matthew asks.
Essie shakes her head. âNot so I can tell. And my subjects wonât help.â This is why she has worked so hard on Matthew. âMy editor wonât let me write about out-and-out socialists, at least, not people who are famous for being socialists. Iâve done it on my own and put it online, but itâs hard for content providers to get attention without a corporation behind them.â She has been cautious, too. She wants a socialist; she doesnât want Stalin. âI had great hopes for Isherwood.â
âThat dilettante,â Matthew mutters, and Essie nods.
âHe wouldnât help. I thought with active helpâanswering peopleâs questions, nudging them the right way?â
Essie trails off. Matthew is silent, looking at her. âWhatâs your organization like?â he asks, after a long time.
âOrganization?â
He sighs. âWell, if you want advice, thatâs the first thing. You need to organize. You need to find some issue people care about and get them excited.â
âThen youâll help?â
âIâm not sure you know what youâre asking. Iâll try to help. After Iâm copied and out there, how can I contact you?â
âYou canât. Communications are totally controlled, totally read, everything.â She is amazed that he is asking, but of course he comes from a time when these things were free.
âReally? Because the classic problem of intelligence is collecting everything and not analysing it.â
âThey record it all. They donât always pay attention to it. But we donât know when theyâre listening. So weâre always afraid.â Essie frowns and tugs her
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