recurring dream that I can somehow get ahold of a mere quarter of his earnings and give it to the fledging school district where I teach.
I hear a cautious knock at the door, and assuming itâs the troll, tell him to come in. When he sees me in my shorts and T-shirt, he gawks as though Iâm wearing a negligee. âYou look amazing.â
âCould you do us both a favor and drop the gigolo act?â
âWhoâs acting? You look good, girl.â He claps his hands together and steps farther inside. âNice digs. I likes.â
He wears a patterned silk robe and brown slippers; his calf muscles bulge beneath the black trim of his robe as he struts around. âI try to work out at least four times a week,â he announces before disrobing. He flexes his muscles. Heâs naked except for the slippers and a pair of black silk boxers. âMay I?â he asks, eyeing the various bottles of booze on top of the antique bar.
âHelp yourself.â
He pours a shot of bourbon and downs it with a quick shake of the head and smack of the lips. He then flicks off his shoes and leaps kiddie-style onto the bed, giving the empty space beside him a few pats. âWe donât have much time, baby. I want you to experience what many have said is the best love theyâve ever had.â
I take a sip of my own drink, and then another. âIâm sure Iâm about to experience something.â
I keep my eyes trained on the ceiling as he kisses me. Heâs a surprisingly good kisser, but I realize Iâm not drunk enough to do what weâre about to do, and all too soon his tongue feels more like a wet mass of wiggling flesh, and my own tongue, horrified, begins to retreat.
âWhatâs wrong, baby? You seem a little tense.â
âI think I need another drink.â
âYou donât need another drink; you need to relax. Why donât you smile for me? If I see that kilowatt smile of yours, Iâll be able to turn on the magic and youâll feel good in no time.â He snaps his fingers to a beat only he can hear. âYou wanna have a good time, donât you?â he says, going into his James Brown. âI say, âYou wanna have a good time?ââ When he juts his elbows out and starts bobbing his head, I smile. He actually has a sweet face. Nice long eyelashes. Big brown eyes. Soft lips.
âThereâs that smile.â He grins. He stares down at me and touches my chin with his finger. This time when we kiss, I find myself thinking about a certain activity that would help me relax even more. I turn away so that he can no longer kiss my face. I then push his shoulders, nudging him southward.
It doesnât take him long to get the hint, and he begins to wiggle his way under the sheets like an excited seal. He stops just before his head is about to disappear. âIâve been told Iâm the best there is when it comes to certain oral delights.â
âYou certainly talk a lot.â
He gives me a wink and disappears under the blankets. Iâm feeling better and thinking that things just might work out, when thereâs a tap at the door followed by Margot bursting into the room without the prerequisite âCome in
.
â
I immediately use my thighs as a vise, willing Selwyn not to budge. I then quickly tuck his robe behind my pillow and rearrange the blankets into a huge mound over my knees, clutching a second pillow to my chest for good measure.
âI canât believe this weather,â she says. âWhy me? Why today?â
One good thing about narcissism: Margot doesnât notice my erratic behavior for a second; nor does she notice the pile of blankets. Honestly, sheâs just that self-centered.
âHavenât you ever heard of waiting for permission before walking into someoneâs room
?â
I give my thighs a firm squeeze and speak loudly enough that Selwyn will get the pointâ
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