appreciates me the way I am. He isnât always trying to change me, to get me to loosen up and live life on the edge. Leland isâ¦comfortable, and thatâs something I need in my life.â
âComfortable, or safe?â Kellie challenged.
âIs there a difference?â
Kellie walked to the window overlooking the busy street ten floors below, and stared out into the darkness for a moment. âDo you want to know what I think?â she asked, keeping her back to Peyton.
âNot really, but I have a feeling youâre going to tell me, anyway.â
Kellie turned to face her, a frown marring her delicate, petite features. âLelandâs safe, Peyton. He doesnât make you feel too much. Not likeâ¦well, not like Jared.â
Peyton let out a slow breath. Sheâd been thinking about Jared, and now Kellie was reminding her of what sheâd tried for three long years to forget but could never quite completely manage to do.
Her friend knew how difficult it had been for her when sheâd made the phone call to turn Jared over to the bureau. But heâd gotten away, knowing she was the one to betray him. She hadnât wanted to believe him capable of a brutal double murder or of stealing two million dollars, but the agents whoâd come to see her had shown her the evidence against him. As an attorney for the United States, reviewing evidence and building a case out of that evidence was her jobâa job she did damn well, if her recent promotion was any indication. And sheâd seen more than enough to know there was little remaining doubt of Jaredâs guilt.Heâd claimed heâd been framed, but what sheâd seen with her own eyes told another story. The story of Special Agent Jared Romine, one of the Federal Bureau of Investigationâs best turned bad.
The truth was indeed damning. Jaredâs fingerprints had been all over the crime scene. From everything sheâd been shown, the evidence not only pointed solely at Jared as the shooter, but as the one whoâd taken the two million in cash from Senator Martin Phippsâs office, as well. She still hadnât understood why the senator had had that kind of money lying around, and she probably never would know. Still, while her mind understood that everything pointed to Jared as the guilty party, her heart had taken a whole lot longer wrapping itself around the fact that heâd actually killed his partner, Jack Dysert, and the senatorâs top aide, Roland Santiago. Two million bucks was a hell of a motivator, so maybe she had her answer, after all.
She looked at the solemn expression on Kellieâs face, at the compassion and understanding shining in her eyes. Kellie never judged. She only offered support and comfort. As far as friends went, she was easily Peytonâs closest and dearest.
Peyton stood. âI wonât deny it. On a certain level, yes, Leland does make me feel safe.â She stuffed the Howell motion back into the file before turning off her laptop, wishing she could shut down thoughts of Jared just as easily. âAnd yeah, I guess you could say he is safe, too. Heâs got a solid career ahead of him. We have the same goals. Weâre well suited. Thereâs nothing wrong with that, Kel. Not if itâs what I want.â
Kellie let out a long breath, her gaze filling withfrustration. âWhat about passion? I mean, okay, I like Leland. Heâs a nice enough guy and he obviously adores you, but come on, Peyton. The guy just screams beige.â
Peyton frowned. âBeige?â
âYeah. Beige. You know, youâre making love with the guy and heâs feeling a little adventurous so he lets you be on top. But heâs not looking at you, heâs staring at the ceiling, and instead of saying something wicked and naughty thatâll excite you more, he says, âI think we should paint the ceiling beige.ââ
Peyton couldnât help