Safe at Last (Slow Burn #3) Read Free Page B

but his imagination had come up with all manner of gruesome possibilities over the years and every single one of them tortured him endlessly.
    “Hey,” Tonya said, once more diverting his thoughts from the blackness into which they’d descended.
    And once more he glanced her way, meeting her sweet smile, warm, sparkling eyes and inviting features.
    “Want to go blow off some steam together? Your place, my place. Doesn’t really matter. And no, before you ask, I’m not proposing marriage and no, I’m not looking for a relationship. I’m happy with my life the way it is at present, but that doesn’t mean I’m blind, nor would I turn down a night of mindless sex with a gorgeous hunk of alpha male.”
    Her question rattled him, even though he considered himself as steady as they come and a master at masking any sort of reaction he might be feeling. He stared blankly at her a moment, pondering why he was even hesitating.
    Tonya was a beautiful, intelligent woman. More than that, she had a sense of humor, didn’t have an ego and didn’t take herself too seriously. And she was a good woman. A woman any man would be damn lucky to have, and not just on the temporary basis she was proposing.
    So why the hell was he sitting here staring like he had no idea how to respond instead of already herding her toward the door?
    What the hell was wrong with him?
    Shame twisted in his gut, filled his chest until it was tight with it. She was offering what most guys would give their left nut for, but damn it, she deserved more than some mindless fuck from a guy not completely and utterly focused on her. And tonight he couldn’t give her that kind of guarantee. He couldn’t give her anything at all except an orgasm, and well, that was questionable too. Because neither of his “heads” were focused, and while he didn’t need his dick to get a woman off and rock her world, he just wasn’t feeling it tonight.
    Tonya slid her hand down his arm and then wrapped her fingers around his wrist, squeezing gently, her smile never faltering.
    “I don’t have a fragile ego, Zack. The look on your face says it all, so stop beating yourself up trying to figure out what to say to break it to me gently that you aren’t looking for a one-night stand. I get it, okay? Well, and if you ever want a rain check, it’s not like I’ll harbor a grudge over being rejected and punish you for eternity.”
    Zack slid his fingers up her jawline, his features intent and serious as he cupped her cheek.
    “That right there is a prime example of why you deserve better than me, even for one night.”
    Her hand fluttered upward to lie across his before she gently pulled it away, squeezing his fingers when she returned his hand to the bar top.
    “Whoever she was did a real number on you.”
    His eyes widened in surprise at her perceptiveness when it came to the fact that his reluctance involved a prior relationship, but he also recognized that the conclusions she’d drawn were wrong. But he didn’t correct her.
    “Shit happens to the best of us,” she said ruefully. “What separates the weak from the strong is what they do with the shit once it falls.”
    Zack leaned forward, framing her face in his hands before kissing her forehead.
    “Thank you. I needed to hear that tonight.”
    As he slid from the bar stool, she frowned. “You need a ride home? How much have you had to drink?”
    He smiled at the chiding tone of her voice. Yes, she was beautiful, fun, smart and witty, but she felt more like a sister than a lover. Why couldn’t he be attracted to her? Sexually. It sure as hell would uncomplicate a hell of a lot of things for him right now. But then none of his previous sexual encounters could hardly be considered a matter of attraction beyond simple lust and a brief moment of blowing off steam.
    If he was attracted to Tonya, or rather felt more than the affection one felt toward a sibling or good friend, then it would mean a more serious relationship,