assumptions.â
Thunder rolled deeply outside, startling her.
âYou wanted to marry an elderly man?â he asked. âI did not know anything more was required of me than my very presence releasing you from your guardianship. I wanted nothing of you but the chance to help. I asked for no dowry, no control of your finances.â
âAnd I thank you again for your generosity and discretion.â
Sheâd been picturing an older man at the twilight of his life, wanting only to assist the daughter of his late close friend. A young man in his prime, without title or fortune, could very well have other motives.
She always prided herself on her intelligence and sensible nature, but she was as flawed as any other desperate woman. And sheâd given this stranger power over her.
Or had she, she thought, swallowing back a desperate hope. Marriages by proxy were risky and were sometimes invalidated. But she didnât want to go back to being a woman under a guardianâs control, her money withheld as if she were a child, all say in her own life restricted.
She would have to consult her lawyersâbut how to explain herself to her relatives and friends? Sheâd already said sheâd fallen in love with the sergeantâs letters. It would be fickle to say that now that sheâd met him in person, sheâd changed her mind.
His expression remained impassive. She was used to men who showed their emotions freelyâher fatherâs happiness and passion for life, she remembered sadly; her brother Oliverâs moody outbursts. But, of course, he hadnât always been like that, she thought, stark, sad memories teasing the edges of her mind. She could remember playing games as she chased him through the gardens of their bungalow in India, their footsteps on the crushed shell path, their laughter.
âSince I was in England, I wanted to see to your welfare, my lady,â Sergeant Blackthorne said. âI could not in good conscience visit my mother without seeing how you fare first.â
âI appreciate your consideration, Sergeant.â She prided herself on being able to judge a personâs character, but in so brief a time, Sergeant Blackthorne seemed utterly blank to her, except for the very cloak of masculinity that made him so different from her. The letters from him sheâd once enjoyed now seemed foreign to her.
She mustnât forget his history with her father. Heâd opened himself up to her in his letters, granted her request though it had cost him his freedom from a marriage of his own choosing. She should be gratefulâbut she could not banish her suspicion.
âYou are the daughter of my commanding officer,â Sergeant Blackthorne continued, âa man I held in the highest esteem. His deathââ He broke off from whatever he meant to say, and his gaze went to the window, where the rain streaked down in rivulets. âHe taught me what it was to be a man and a soldier. I will never forget my debt to him.â
Heâd obviously looked up to her father, as had she. But sheâd also resented his dedication to his regiment, the Eighth Dragoon Guards, for the many sorrows it had caused. It had made her mother miserable, and the older Cecilia got, the more her mother had confided that misery.
âSo you consider me a debt,â she said slowly.
âNo,â he said, then spread both his hands. âWhat am I to you?â
She stared at him, and was glad when Talbot himself, rather than a gawking maid, came into the room with a tea tray. Cecilia could only imagine how the servantsâ hall was buzzing with news of her mysterious husbandâs arrival.
âSince dinner is some hours away,â Talbot said to her, âI had Cook prepare sandwiches for Lord Blackthorne.â
âYou are using an incorrect title, Talbot,â she said absently, still obsessed with staring at the sergeant.
Talbot hesitated. âI have