It was a comfort to have some
help close by. By the time they'd clambered up the shifting
landfall to the plateau at the top of the precipice and were walking
through the flatter scrub towards the tent, they had become
separated by only a few hundred paces. They were more hesitant
and slow. Exhausted, obviously; but also uncertain of the way,
uncertain even if this quarantine were wise. They were searching
for the wayside marks, carved in the largest rocks by some holy
traveller years before and now much eroded, which indicated
where the caves were found. The marks directed them towards
the higher ground. They had to leave the camel tracks and the
cliff-top path before they reached or even saw the tent, with its
abandoned invalid. They walked along the flood-beds of the
little valley, and none of them could miss the opportunity to
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make their own marks by stamping on the soft clay before they
headed for the scarp and for the dry and warmer caves behind
the poppies and the grave. So Miri woke, startled by sudden
noises. The first of the temporary hermits was scrambling through
the loose stones of the scarp to choose his place to sleep. Miri
could not see who had disturbed her, but she recognized the
sound of human feet, slipping in the scree. She could hear others
approaching from below.
Miri curled into a ball, a porcupine without the quills. She
was no longer undisturbed. Whose unsteady feet were these?
She wished that she could disappear into the ground. That was
possible. There was an open and inviting grave for her, within
arm's reach. She only had to roll the once. A few stones clattered
into the grave with her, but they were not noticed. Four pairs
of climbing feet were making greater noises of their own and,
anyway, no wild land is ever entirely still and silent. It has its
discords and its detonations. Earth collapses with the engineering
of the ants; lizards smack the pebbles with their tails; the sun
fires seeds in salvos from their pods; pigeons misconnect with
dry branches; and stones, left loosely to their own devices, can
find the muscle to descend the hill. So Miri settled in to Musa's
grave and, for the moment, was not seen or heard.
She had been dreaming about her child, of course. The usual
mix: anxiety and joy. Her sleep had shut her husband out. But,
in those alarming moments when she woke, became a porcupine,
became percussion in the scrub, became the first trembling
resident of her husband's grave, she had convinced herself that
it was Musa who'd woken her. Who else? He had disturbed her
sleep so many times before. So it had been his stiff and bloodless
feet which sent the small stones tumbling. He'd died, alone, with
no one there to mediate. That was the fate that's worse than
death. Now he'd come to find his wife. She wasn't hard to find.
There was the recent kicked-up trail which led out from the
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tent across the flat scrub, into the valley, up to the scarp. There
was the abattoir of stones, clawed out for him. There was her
mocking headscarf, thrown off, snagged on a thorn, and left to
flag him to her. There was the grave, and Miri crouching in it,
hardly hidden, the tiny sobbing woman in the fat man's hole.
How could he miss her? And, then, how could he let her go
unpunished? Musa was no mystery to her. He'd use his fists and
feet. He'd pick up rocks and earth to finish her. The living would
be buried by the dead. That's what the prophets said. The world
would end that way.
But minutes passed. There were no rocks. She was not stifled
by his body pressing down on hers. Finally she found the courage
to crouch in the corner of the grave and peer out, a rodent
peeping from its burrow. Of course she did not recognize the
people that she saw, but neither was she frightened of them now.
They were, at least, the living. No Musa then. Not even death
and its three partisans. She was exposed to nothing worse than
strangers.
Miri felt too