saying it's
good or bad; it's just the way it is in Fairfield. And, to be honest, most
of the south side girls treat me like Carmen Sanchez does . . . they
hate me because of who I am.
Or, rather, who they think I am.
Alex's gaze slowly moves down my body, traveling the length of me
before moving back up. It's not the first time a guy has checked me
out, it's just that I never had a guy like Alex do it so blatantly . . . and
so up-close.
I can feel my face getting hot.
"Next time, watch where you're goin'," he says, his voice cool and
controlled.
He's trying to bully me. He's a pro at this. I won't let him get to
me and win his little game of intimidation, even if my stomach feels like
I'm doing one hundred cartwheels in a row. I square my shoulders and
sneer at him, the same sneer I use to push people away. "Thanks for
the tip."
"If you ever need a real man to teach you how to drive, I can give
you lessons."
Catcalls and whistles from his buddies set my blood boiling.
"If you were a real man, you'd open the door for me instead of
blocking my way," I say, admiring my own comeback even as my knees
threaten to buckle.
Alex steps back, pulls the door open, and bows like he's my butler.
He's totally mocking me, he knows it and I know it. Everyone knows it. I
catch a glimpse of Sierra, still desperately searching for nothing in her
purse.
She's clueless.
"Get a life," I tell him.
"Like yours? Cabrona, let me tell you somethin'," Alex says harshly.
"Your life isn't reality, it's fake. Just like you."
"It's better than living my life as a loser," I lash out, hoping my
words sting as much as his words did. "Just like you."
Grabbing Sierra's arm, I pull her toward the open door. Catcalls
and comments follow us as we walk into the school.
I finally let out the breath I must have been holding, then turn to
Sierra.
My best friend is staring at me, all bug-eyed. "Holy shit, Brit! You
got a death wish or something?"
"What gives Alex Fuentes the right to bully everyone in his path?"
"Uh, maybe the gun he has hidden in his pants or the gang colors he
wears," Sierra says, sarcasm dripping from every word.
"He's not stupid enough to carry a gun to school," I reason. "And I
refuse to be bullied, by him or anyone else." At school, at least. School
is the one place I can keep up my ‘perfect’ facade; everyone at school
buys it. Suddenly pumped about starting my last year at Fairfield, I
shake Sierra's shoulders. "We're seniors now," I say with the same
enthusiasm I use for pom-pom routines during football games.
"So?"
"So, starting right now everything is going to be p-e-r-f-e-c-t."
The bell rings, which is not exactly a bell because the student body
voted last year to replace bells with music between classes. Right now
they're playing ‘Summer Lovin'’ from Grease. Sierra starts walking
down the hall. "I'll make sure you have a p-e-r-f-e-c-t funeral. With
flowers and everything."
"Who died?" a voice from behind me asks.
I turn around. It's Colin, blond hair bleached from the summer sun
and a grin so large it takes up almost his whole face. I wish I had a
mirror to see if my makeup is smudged. But surely Colin will date me
even if it is, won't he? I run up and give him the biggest hug.
He holds me tight, kisses me lightly on the lips, and pulls back.
"Who died?" he asks again.
"Nobody," I answer. "Forget about it. Forget everything except
being with me."
"It's easy when you look so damn hot." Colin kisses me again. "Sorry
I haven't called. It's been so crazy unpacking and everything."
I smile up at him, glad our summer apart hasn't changed our
relationship. The solar system is safe, at least for now.
Colin drapes his arm around my shoulders as the front doors to the
school open. Alex and his friends burst through as if they're here to
hijack the school.
"Why do they even come to school?" Colin mutters low so only I can
hear. "Half of them'll probably drop out before the