Sweet and naive and kind without expecting anything in return. She feared for anyone so gentle. In this company it was better to be hard, to wear oneâs armor, as well as perfecting oneâs noncommittal grin. If Bess ever challenged someone like Cynthia, sheâd be cut down before she ever saw the scythe.
âI donât disagree with your notion of independence.â Even when espousing womenâs independence, Bess spoke softly. âBut what of love?â She waited a beat and turned to watch Cynthia leave the room to see the Lissman sisters off.
When Bess turned back, her delicate features tensed as she whispered, âWhat of passion?â
Yes, what of passion? Kitty had been waiting to feel it for four seasons. Thereâd been moments of excitementâÂthe thrill of catching a handsome manâs gaze, the zing of physical attraction when a gentleman took her in his arms before a waltz, and even the heady pleasure of conversing with a clever man interested in topics beyond sports and gentlemanly wagers.
Every spark of intrigue fizzled, and not a single burst of initial enchantment ever grew into a flame. If a manâs attention toward her didnât quickly wane, her interest in him did. In Kittyâs experience, most menâs appeal lasted the length of one ball or perhaps a single other afternoon social call. If a gentleman didnât drone on endlessly about himself, he took to telling Kitty what she must do. You must see the new play at Drury Lane. You must go riding with me in Hyde Park tomorrow. You must come see my horse run the Derby.
Few asked her opinions or considered her preferences. Just like her father.
When she found herself unable to wrap four years of disappointment into a few words, Bess nudged her arm.
The girlâs eyes were huge and danced with mischief as she spoke in a low voice meant for secrets and intrigue. âIf you have no plans to marry, will you take a lover?â
Apparently Miss Berwick could be as fanciful as she was kind.
Passion. A lover. Kitty couldnât imagine either when she anticipated a season of struggling with her father to make her own choices.
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Chapter Two
Cambridgeshire, May, 1891
S LASHING THE AIR with a sword was doing nothing to improve Sebastian Fennickâs mood. As he thrust, the needle-Âthin foil bending and arching through the air and sending tingling reverberations along his hand, he glared across at his opponent, though he doubted she could see any better than he could from behind the tight mesh of her fencing mask.
His sister parried before offering a spot-Âon riposte of her own, her foil bowing in a perfect semicircle as she struck him.
âAre you making any sort of effort at all?â
Seb bit back the reply burning the tip of his tongue. Fencing was the least of his concerns. In the last month heâd learned of the death of a cousin heâd barely known and inherited the responsibility for one dukedom, three thousand acres of land, hundreds of tenants, twenty-Âeight staff members, one London residence, and a country house with so many rooms, he was still counting. He could find no competitive pleasure in wielding a lightweight foil when his mind brimmed with repairs, meetings, investments, and invitations to social events that spanned the rest of the calendar year.
And all of it was nothing to the bit of paper in his waistcoat pocket, separated by two layers of fabric from the scar on his chest, dual reminders of what a fool heâd been, how one womanâs lies nearly ended his life.
He wouldnât open her letter. Instead, heâd take pleasure in burning the damn thing.
Never again. Never would he allow himself to be manipulated as he had been in the past. He had to put the past from his mind altogether.
Fencing wasnât doing the trick. Give him a proper sword and let him dash it against a tree trunk. Better yet, give him a dragon to slay. That might do quite