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‘It’s about loyalty, yeah? Friendship. Love. Betrayal.’
    ‘What do you mean?’
    ‘That movie,’ he rambled. ‘ The Third Man . Carol Reed directed. The music. The zither. Gets me every time. Orson Welles peaked early, couldn’t ever repeat his early success, that was his tragedy. Poor bastard. Made some of the greatest movies of all times. But what do most people remember him for? The fat man who did the sherry commercials.’
    ‘I’m not totally on your bus,’ Grace said.
    ‘Domecq, I think it was. Domecq sherry. Maybe. Who cares?’ Glenn picked up his glass and drained it. ‘I’m driving. Screw that.’
    Grace waited patiently; there was no way he was letting Glenn drive anywhere. He’d never seen his friend in a state like this.
    Glenn held the glass up, almost without realizing.
    ‘You want some more?’
    Staring back down at the table, the DS replied, ‘Whatever.’
    Grace poured him four fingers. Just over two months ago, Glenn had been shot during a raid which Grace had organized – and which Grace had felt guilty as hell about ever since. The .38 bullet that hit the DS had, miraculously, done relatively little damage. Half an inch to the right and it would have been a very different story.
    Entering his abdomen low down beneath his ribcage, the low-velocity, round-nose bullet managed to just miss the spinal cord, the aorta, the inferior vena cava and ureters. It nicked part of his loops of bowel, which had needed to be surgically resected, and caused soft-tissue damage, mostly to his fat and muscle, which had also required surgery. He had been allowed home, after ten days in hospital, for a lengthy convalescence.
    At some point during every single day or night in the following two months, Grace had replayed the events of that raid. Over and over and over. Despite all the planning and precautions, it had gone badly wrong. None of his superiors had criticized him over it, but in his heart Grace felt guilty because a man under his command had been shot. And the fact that Branson was his best friend made it worse for him.
    What made it even worse still was that earlier, in the same operation, another of his officers, an extremely bright young DC called Emma-Jane Boutwood, had been badly injured by a van she was trying to stop, and was still in hospital.
    One quotation from a philosopher he had come across recently had given him some solace, and had taken up permanent residence in his mind. It was from Søren Kierkegaard, who wrote, ‘Life must be lived forward, but it can only be understood backwards.’
    ‘Ari,’ Glenn said suddenly. ‘Jesus. I don’t get it.’
    Grace knew that his friend had been having marital problems. It went with the territory. Police officers worked insane, irregular hours. Unless you were married to someone also in the force, who would understand, you were likely to have problems. Virtually every copper did, at some point. Maybe Sandy did too, and she never discussed it. Maybe that was why she had vanished. Had she simply had enough one day, upped sticks and left? It was just one of the many possibilities of what had happened to her that July night. On his thirtieth birthday.
    Nine years ago, last Wednesday.
    The Detective Sergeant drank some more brandy and then coughed violently. When he had finished he looked at Grace with large, baleful eyes. ‘What am I going to do?’
    ‘Tell me what’s happened?’
    ‘Ari’s had enough, like, that’s what’s happened.’
    ‘Enough of what?’
    ‘Me. Our life. I don’t know. I just don’t know,’ he said, staring ahead. ‘She’s been doing all these self-improvement courses. I told you she keeps buying me these books, Men Are from Mars, Women Are from Venus , yeah? Why Women Can’t Read Maps and Men Can’t Find Stuff in Fridges , or some crap like that. Right? Well, she’s been getting angrier and angrier that I keep coming home late and she misses her courses cos she’s stuck with the kids. Right?’
    Grace got