whoâs ever read a Regency romance knows what that means. Pride and prejudice, pomp and privilege, along with vast fortunes, hordes of servants, and a hundred pieces of silverware on the table. Yeah, Iâd fit right in.
Grant said we didnât have to spend all our time in England. They were setting up a branch of the Royce Institute here in Paumanok Harbor, so he could use Long Island as an alternate base. He flew all over the world and I could go with him, he promised. As if constant air trips were a selling point. Or as if I could write in a plane, a hotel, or a palace.
No matter what he did now, where he lived, how far he traveled, heâd be the Earl of Grantham some day. Iâd be a countess, taking tea with royalty.
I could talk about my writing. What my own family called comic books. Or how I put myself through college working at my grandmotherâs farm stand. Maybe they needed tips on picking a melon. And I could wear my denim cutoffs and flip-flops under the ermineâor was that for dukes?âand tiara.
Grant said theyâd love me, because he did. Besides, we were meant for each other. He was the only one who could translate the tender inscription on my pendant, wasnât he, the one made from my motherâs heirloom wedding band? What he meant was that the matchmakers at Royce decided we were genetically compatible, which I resented. Oh, boy, did I resent that. No one was going to pick a husband for me, no matter how brilliant and talented our children might turn out. Look what such a preordained coupling did for my parents, not that I am complaining about being born, but theyâve been divorced for almost as long as they were married. Besides, what if he only loved me because someone said he should? How could I know?
It wasnât going to work, Grant and me. The distance, the life-styles, the way Iâd be doing most of the compromising. I touched the pendant. I and thou, one forever. Thatâs what it said in an ancient mind-speaking language I could not imagine or comprehend. Like I could never imagine a happily ever after for the two of us. I had a great imagination, but Iâm only human. I wasnât sure about Grant.
Thatâs why I was afraid to make the call. I had to ask the most wonderful man Iâd ever met to come help this poor, plague-ridden little village. And tell him I couldnât marry him.
I poured a little more Kahlua over my melting ice cream.
I got his voice mail. What I had to say couldnât be left on a machine, so I just asked him to call me back as soon as he could.
Reprieved for now, thank goodness. I could wring my hands, go for a walk, or get some work done. I chose to lose myself in the book I was writing, usually the perfect escape from reality for me. I hadnât done much on the story since the nightmares began, so I had to reread it from the beginning.
Iâd decided to write about a teenaged girl this time. Girls read more than boys, and they deserved the kind of heroic adventure I tried to write and illustrate. Thereâd be a boy later, but as a partner, not any knight in shining armor come to rescue the helpless maiden. No, my heroine was going to be a kick-ass kid, doing battle with evil. The problem was, according to my outline, she was in a wheelchair and she needed a magical flying steed. A white magical flying steed. Holy shit.
I went back to the kitchen. Instead of a little Kahlua with my ice cream, I served up a little ice cream with my Kahlua. I didnât usually drink, but desperate times called for dire measures. And this was medicinal. Heaven knew, I needed a shot of something. I looked at the drawings Iâd done. I looked at the ringing phone. I didnât usually pray either, but this seemed like a good time to start.
âHello, sweetheart,â he said. I could hear the smile in his voice.
âI didnât do it!â
âYou didnât make the plane reservation yet?â
I had
Scott McEwen, Thomas Koloniar