too.
I push open the window and climb outside to the roof of the garage. The warm air sticks to my skin. I wait for my eyes to get used to the dark and then find my way along the tar paper. When I reach the edge, I sit down and let my feet swing down toward Ramble Street.
In the entire town of Massapequa Park, thereâs no place like the garage rooftop. Itâs above the glare of the streetlights, so I get a clear view of the stars and the moon. When I look down, I can see every house on our block, from Old Mrs. Murphyâs house crammed with flowers to Conchetta Marchettaâs house crammed with kids.
But the best thing about the roof is that no one knows Iâm here. Iâve been coming out since I was eight and havenât got caught yet.
In the forty-two days since Kebsie left, Iâve learned that thereâs only one thing that can help when Iâm missing her.
A howl at the moon.
âArgooo!â My first try sounds like a squeaky sneeze.
Kebsie would be disappointed. She was the expert. Full moons. New moons. Crescent moons. Waxing gibbous. Waning gibbous. Quarter moons. Kebsie knew about every phase of the moon and howled at each and every one.
It drove the adults on Ramble Street crazy. You should hear the fuss they all made. MaryBeth Grabowsky said her parents complained about Kebsie every morning. Shirley said that all those TV shows about werewolves and vampires did a job on Kebsieâs brain.
At first, I didnât know what to think. A howling girl is not exactly a common thing to find on Ramble Street. But Kebsie didnât care what anyone thought, even me. She was fearless. And I loved her for it.
I never howled when Kebsie was here. I was too afraid to try. Sheâd climb on top of Mrs. Kutchnerâs garage roof and make a racket, while I pressed myself flat against my own roof, trying my best to looking invisible, worried my parents would catch me. Nights like tonight, when the moon is full and bright, made me especially nervous.
I take a deep breath and give it another try.
âArgooooo!â
Better, but still not great.
I look across the street to Mrs. Kutchnerâs empty garage roof and try again.
âArrooo!â My last one is almost perfect. I can see why this was Kebsieâs joy.
Iâm about to give it one more try when Marshall calls.
âTamara! Is that you? Are you making that noise?â His voice is muffled so I can tell heâs still in his bedroom.
I climb back through the window and slink under my covers. âNo, Daddy.â
I hear footsteps, quick ones, heading my way. They stop at the foot of the stairs. âDo you have any idea how early I have to wake up?â Marshall yells, and Iâm suddenly grateful that my parents are stair shouters and not face-to-face yellers like Big Dannyâs mom and dad. For now, my garage roof secret is safe.
âWhat are you doing up there?â
âNothing, Daddy.â
âDo you know what time my train comes in the morning?â
â7:11,â I say, because he tells me all the time.
âDo you think itâs easy having to take the Long Island Railroad into the city and then work eight long hours and then take the train all the way back to Massapequa Park every day?â
âNo, Daddy.â
âAre you trying to make my life difficult? Is that what youâre doing up there?â he asks.
Every bone in my body wants to scream, âYou betcha!â If Kebsie were here, thatâs what sheâd say. No. If Kebsie were here, sheâd say, âYou betcha, Marshall ,â because Kebsie believes you shouldnât take any flack from anyone, and she calls everyone, even grown-ups, by their first names directly to their faces and not just behind their backs, like I do.
You should have seen Mrs. Webberâs jaw drop the day Kebsie marched into the classroom and said, âHi, Agnes.â Even my older brother Tim wouldnât have had the
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