hanging there, tied to the rail. It had to beââ
My sister interrupts. âA person ! The halters were unbuckled.â Once she gets started talking, she canât stop. âThey said it might have been me. After all, who needs a horse more than I do? And there I was, riding him. They say he should be shotâbecause of his legs. When we got to town, he collapsed. I couldnât stand for him to be shot.â
âWeâll take all our moneyâitâs ours nowâand buy him and pay the doctor to fix him.â
But the doctor says, âSon, I saw that horse. He should be put out of his misery as soon as possible. I donât like to see an animal suffer.â
âYou could fix him. Weâll pay.â
âI donât do horses, and Iâm not so sure he can be fixed. Heâs never going to be much good again even if his legs do heal. Heâs not worth two dollars. Youâd have to pay two dollars to have him hauled off.â
My sister says, âMoonlight Blue was sweating and shaking, but he waited till I got off before he collapsed.â
âTell me, quick, how to get there!â
âGo back with the doctor,â she says. âHeâll show you.â
The doctor goes inside and comes right out. âSheâs dead,â he says. He turns to me. âDid you realize that?â
My sister slumps down on her knees just like I did. Then the doctor looks more sympathetic and reaches to touch her shoulder. âIâm sorry. Can you children manage?â Then he asks my sister how old she is and when she says twenty, he says, âI thought you were hardly seventeen,â and then again, âWill you manage?â
âCan I ride back with you?â I say. âI have to go for Mister . . . I mean for Moonlight Blue.â
âIt isnât right to go chasing after that no-good horse at a time like this.â
My sister says, âThat horse is special.â
âMaybe he was once, but not anymore. And he doesnât even belong to you.â
I ask my sister, âWhere did Mother keep the money? Pay the doctor, and Iâll need some more to get Moonlight back. Hurry!â
But she doesnât know where the money is any more than I do.
âBut you earned half of it yourself! More than half, Iâll bet! There must be some somewhere.â
We look in all the normal places a person would hide money and some not-so-normal places, but we donât find a single dollar, and we donât have time to do a good job of hunting. Mister Boots might be in trouble already.
We give the doctor a white crocheted afghan for payment. It looks special, like for a wedding. Iâll bet itâs worth a lot more than his visit out here for no other reason than to say, âSheâs dead.â
I gather up a few knit things in case I need to pay for Mister Boots and for a coffin for Mother. I should be thinking about her, but I hardly can because Mister Boots might be being shot right this very minute.
I ride back with the doctor. I donât like him, but Iâve never been in a car before. We make a nice big plume of dust.
By the time we get to town, itâs evening. All the way I worry more and more about Mister Boots.
Â
Â
I guess if you find a man lying naked in a horse stall with ruined legs, you donât doubt at all anymore that this man is the same as that horse. Mother said I shouldnât believe things like this. Those were practically her dying words, but I just canât be the way she said to be.
At first I think heâs dead, too. I know horses often die from trying too hard. But then I see the whites of his eyes flickerâcatch the light for a second as he opens them a little bit.
âMister Boots?â
Then he really looks at me and tries to speak, but only a blowy, horsey noise comes out. I get him water in the horse bucket and help him drink.
âDid I do it?â
âYou did.
Terry Ravenscroft, Ravenscroft