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and other documents. Sibylla never had a clue about what went on behind his correct façade. She just finished her food properly, leaving the table as soon as she was given permission.
    â€˜Very well, Sibylla. You may go to bed now.’
    Sibylla rose and reached for her plate to take it to the kitchen.
    â€˜Sibylla, please. Gun-Britt will clear the table later.’
    But at school they always had to tidy up after their meals. It was really hard to remember which rules to follow there and which ones applied at home. She left the plate where it was and went over to her father.

    â€˜Good night, Daddy.’ She kissed him quickly on the cheek.
    â€˜Good night.’
    Sibylla walked towards the door.
    â€˜Sibylla. Haven’t you forgotten something?’
    She turned and looked at her mother.
    â€˜Aren’t you coming upstairs to say good night?’
    â€˜Really, darling. It’s Wednesday. You know tonight is a Ladies’ Club meeting. When will you learn?’
    â€˜I’m sorry.’
    Sibylla went to her mother and kissed her too quickly on the cheek. It smelled of powder and day-old perfume.
    â€˜If there’s anything you need, ask Gun-Britt.’
    Gun-Britt was the maid. She took over when Mrs Forsenström didn’t have time to cook or clean or help Sibylla with her homework. Goodness gracious, she had to think of her charity work, after all. Without Mrs Forsenström, how would the little children in Biafra fare?
    Sibylla remembered envying these far-away children, who were so scared and upset that nice ladies from the other side of the Earth spent their time worrying about them. When she was six years old, she felt she’d better do something to make herself more interesting: becoming just as scared as these other children seemed a good idea so she decided to sleep one night in the large, dark and spooky attic intheir house. She took her pillow, tiptoed up the stairs and went to sleep on a pile of old rugs. Gun-Britt found her there in the morning and had to tell on her to Beatrice, of course. The recriminations took more than an hour and the scene got on Beatrice’s nerves so badly that she had a migraine attack that lasted for several days afterwards. This was Sibylla’s fault, of course.
    There was at least one thing she could thank her mother for. After almost eighteen years in the Forsenström home, she had developed an almost uncanny ability to analyse the mental states of people around her. Sheer instinct for self-preservation had attuned her to respond to the slightest shifts like a living seismograph, always alert to her mother’s every whim and quick to predict likely causes of bad temper. She remained remarkably sensitive to the body language and verbal signals of people around her. This, as it happened, was of great help in the life she’d ended up leading.
    The water in the tub was getting cool. She got out, shaking off drops of water and all these memories too. A beautifully thick, soft dressing-gown was hanging over the heated towel-rail next to the tub, and she wrapped herself in it and went to inspect her room. There was an American soap on the TV. It was accompanied by lots of canned laughter but turned out to be really funny. She settled downto watch it for a while, carefully going through her nail-varnishing routine in the meantime.
    Always clean and tidy – Rule Number One.
    Sticking to this rule set her apart from most other homeless people she knew. Being aware of it had allowed her to take one step away from the kind of misery that crushes all hope.
    What mattered was what you looked like . As simple as that.
    Respect was the preserve of people who appeared to live by the social norms – the citizens who didn’t differ too much from the rest. If you didn’t manage to fit in, you were treated accordingly. Weakness is a provocation in itself. People are scared silly when confronted with others without pride. Shameless