How sheâd agree that if youâre tall for your age, and mature enough not to smoke, youâre ready to do your bit.
âAnd sheâd understand about girls,â I said to Daisy. âHow you have to go to war to get one.â
Daisy probably didnât have a clue what I was talking about. But she could tell from my voice it was important. So she stopped trying to get her head into my pocket looking for apples.
I hoped Dad would agree it was important. Huns and Turks were giving our blokes a battering. Memorial services most weeks in the district. Four coffins, some of them.
âSo what if Iâm not eighteen,â I said to Daisy. âIâve got hair where it counts.â
Daisy didnât argue. Sheâd seen me having baths in creeks. She knew I was ready to do my bit.
Heading into the house, I saw something on the verandah table.
A little box, wrapped up all pretty with a ribbon.
Jeez, I thought, thatâs not from Dad.
I picked it up.
It wasnât from him, it was for him. His name on it. Curly writing Iâd never seen before.
âHappy birthday, son,â said Dad, coming out of the kitchen with something wrapped in newspaper. That was more his style.
âThanks, Dad,â I said, taking the horse brush I knew heâd got for me.
âStruth,â said Dad, grinning and staring at the flash little box. âHappy birthday from a lady, eh?â
âItâs for you,â I said.
He frowned. I knew why. Mum hadnât even been dead a year.
âYou open it,â he said.
Inside the pretty little box there wasnât a present.
Just a feather. A white feather. No note, but we both knew what the message was.
Only blokes who werenât in the army got white feathers. Blokes who people thought should be in the army. Sometimes people couldnât tell the difference between a coward and a stubborn parent.
Dadâs face when he saw the feather. Only time Iâd seen him looking more crook was when the doctor told us Mum wasnât going to make it.
âThatâs not fair,â I said. âThey donât understand.â
Dad didnât say anything. Just stared at it. But his face. No way he was putting off going now.
I had a worrying thought.
âWeâre a team,â I said. âYouâre not dumping me with the rellies in Perth.â
âNo,â muttered Dad. âIâm not.â
Dad didnât like Mumâs folks. At the funeral they blamed him for Mum getting sick. They didnât say anything, but you could tell.
So that was it.
We said oo-roo to the neighbours, nailed the windows shut, saddled up Daisy and Jimmy, and went to Sydney to volunteer.
The recruiting officer frowned. Gave all four of us the once-over.
Daisy and Jimmy snorted. They could tell the recruiting officer wasnât crazy about them. He didnât seem that keen about me and Dad either.
Jeez, I thought. What if he doesnât take us?
Iâd been keeping that worry buried for days on the ride to Sydney. But it was out now. The shameful life ahead for us if me and Dad didnât do our bit. Me dying a lonely old bachelor with no wife and kids. Not even knowing what a girlâs skin feels like. Dad getting spat on in the pub and probably no more work.
âTheyâre both good horses,â said Dad to the officer. âWalers. Faster than they look.â
I was glad he said that. Honest truth was they didnât look that nimble. Jimmy was getting on. Daisy was beautiful with her white face and feet, but she was a bit of a crook shape.
âSafest feet in the district,â I said to the officer, which was a bit rich given Daisyâs personality, but the officer probably wouldnât be talking to people out Cudgegong way.
âShow me,â said the officer.
The army camp had some jumps set up. Pretty tough ones. Barbed wire. Ditches full of mud. Not ordinary mud, army mud.
Dad went first.
I knew