time, I couldnt pry myself out of his arms. Gabe had called Mike to cover the bar. Jamie had left, mumbling something to us about going out.
I would have been lying if I said his growing distance didnt hurt.
My shrink notebook sat beside me. Id put down only those few things to change. Gabe had already read them. Six more to go. Finally he rose from the bed, kissed me on the forehead, and stepped up to the closet to dig out some clothes.
“Are you leaving?” I asked.
“Just for a while. Doing some vampire stuff.”
“The Trimega?” Did my voice sound a little higher pitched than usual?
He let out a heavy sigh. “Eventually it will be over, and they will leave us alone. Anyway, I told Jamie to take the night off. So you have some time to yourself. Call me if you need me, please.”
“Okay.” I watched him button up a green Gucci shirt that matched his eyes. “I dont deserve you.”
Gabe laughed, turning back to me. His amazing smile almost seemed to make his face glow. “Ive been telling myself the same thing about you for years. I feel like Ive caught a unicorn and should share it with the rest of the world. Only I dont want to.”
A jackass, more like it. “Heh.”
He leaned down to give me a quick peck on the cheek. “Make something sweet. Ill share a drink with you later and taste the dessert on your lips. Kay?”
“Okay.”
He left, and I lay in bed for a while, thinking about my list. I wrote down:
5. If I’d known my dad, I might not be so afraid to feel things.
The thought of not knowing him had never bothered me before. I assumed my mother had taken whatever liberties were due her as a leader in the Dominion and forced my father to give her a child. Now the idea that he was such a mystery sort of drove me nuts. Sure, I could call Jamie and hed probably tell me, but he was mad at me. No need to give him another reason to feel he had to take care of me.
At almost twenty-three I was more than capable of survival, even when faced with some of the worst situations. Something that Id proven only a few weeks ago. I didnt need anyones reluctant babying.
Searching the Internet for my father pulled up very little information. Dorien Merth had died while I was still in my mothers womb. Everything else was classified in password protected Dominion files. That didnt bode well.
My phone rang. The number came up with a bunch of zeros, I flipped it open. “Hello?”
“You should die, you abnormal faggot freak. Youve got no right to be Pillar.” The phone clicked off before I could reply. I tried to dial back, but the number was blocked.
It rang again within seconds, and I glared at it until Kellys number popped up. I flipped it open, almost dreading what Id hear. “Hello?”
“Hey, Sei. You busy? Im headed to the Dominion Library at the U to look up some water stuff. Want to keep me company? All the girls can stare at both of us.”
At least Kelly experienced a lot of what I did. I wondered if he was getting hate e-mails and calls. At five seven, Kelly only had three inches on me and probably thirty pounds, since he was very athletic. But his blond shaggy surfer-cut hair made folks think of him as not all that bright. However, he was the top of his class. Graduated valedictorian of his high school and had a full scholarship to the U of M.
“Sure. Can you pick me up?” My night vision wasnt great since becoming Pillar. The power the earth cycled through me sometimes pulsed in waves that could make me swerve or stop for fear of crashing. It was like being hit with bouts of nausea, only it didnt really hurt.
“Yep. Be there soon.” We hung up the phone, and I waited for it to ring again, but it didnt. Just to be sure to settle my nerves, I drank another cup of tea.
Once the teacup was in the dishwasher and the counter clean again, I pulled on a pair of sweats and a hoodie. I lifted my hair back into a ponytail before stepping into my boots and swinging on my coat. The Dominion Library was probably a good place