it was so easy to dismiss that pint sized villain the first time I met her. I knew the moment I realized she was not Paige that I’d met my match. I saw it in her eyes. To everyone else she looked like a self-confident, self-made woman. But to me, I saw in her eyes what no one else but perhaps her twin and the man of her life would see. I saw the vulnerable woman inside that was hiding something. I saw the secrets her teasing and forwardness were hiding. That’s why I walked away. Pam was not like the women I was used to dating. Going at her head on wasn’t going to work. I had to make her come to me. So now you know why I dismiss the woman I knew would be mine. As hard as I fought against it in the beginning I always knew she would be mine. What I also knew with every fiber of my being was that it was not going to be easy. I could see her secrets in her eyes and I knew for damn sure I had too many secrets of my own. Our story is not as easy as all the others. Lord knows if I could have avoided the challenges in our future I would have in a heartbeat, but I couldn’t. I don’t blame Pam for what has happened to us. It’s my fault. I knew her trust was fragile and why, but I took a huge risk. My reasoning made sense at the time but now I know my errors really weren’t worth it. It all came out in the wash. I mean everything. Things I’d tried to hide and things I didn’t know were being hidden all came to light eventually. It is just one day it was one secret too much. So now I have a question. It’s an important one because for the last two months I haven’t been able to breathe. How do you fix the hurt you caused someone you promised never to hurt? How do you get the love of your life back when you have dealt her the same blow you saved her from? How do I, Nathan Briggs save my family?
Chapter Two T he wedding was over and Nate’s best friend finally got the girl. Bobby and Paige made a great couple and they were going to be so happy together. They deserved it. Nate couldn’t help but once again think about how much he wanted to find that type of love for himself. It had been on his mind since the day Bobby proposed. His mind turned to club Desire and Vanessa. She was okay. They had actually become friends over the years but something always told him that she was hiding things. If he was honest he knew she was in a real relationship, married even. He had come to accept that there were more than a few married women in membership at the club. He had taken other partners at the club over the years but Vanessa had become a comfort. They had even ventured a date or two outside the club a couple of times. It was the nagging instinct he had about her that stopped him from trying for more with her. He liked the way their relationship was. Besides he knew he didn’t have those types of feelings for her. It had been seven years since they had met and started their arrangement. He knew if she was the one he would have known by now. Nate was cool with the occasional email to set up time at the club. It worked well for his busy life and it meant fewer questions about his work. Briggs Security was Nate’s life and the woman that managed to be in his life would have to understand that. That was another reason dating was difficult. His life was devoted to the safety of the Mairettie family, Bobby Mairettie especially. Then there was his own empire. He’d built an empire that seemed to run itself, but he had put in a whole lot of work to get it to flow that way. It was not that he hadn’t tried to date in the past seven years, he’d tried a few times but his work always got in the way before things even took off. Other times he just hadn’t been interested in the women he’d chosen to date. Nate may have been dominant when it came to sex but he didn’t want a woman that he could run over in everyday life. However he was not one to be run over either. He wanted a woman he could