something to be revered. All I can think of is the blood and rot and smoke and whispers of my dreams. All I can think about is the terrible thing I did. The secrets I keep from my family every day.
Lulaâs phone chimes three times. Maks must be outside.
âTrust me on this,â Lula says. âAnd hurry up and get dressed. Maks is here.â
I start to head back up the stairs when I hear Lula shout, âRose! Thatâs an offering!â
Rose is licking the excess ambrosia from the whisk, a guilty smile spreading to her round cheeks. âWhat? The ambrosiaâs a metaphor for our divine offering. Itâs not like the Deos are going to eat all of it.â
Lula looks up at the ceiling and asks, âWhat did I do in my last life to deserve you two?â
âYou were a pirate queen who stole a treasure from Cortés and then ended up deserting your crew to man-hungry sharks,â Rose tells her. âWeâre your punishment for every lifetime to come.â
Lula rolls her eyes. âSeems excessive.â
I leave them and run upstairs to get dressed.
I canât believe I let Lula talk me into doing another canto. I still havenât learned how to say no to her. Iâd like to meet someone who can. I know if Iâm not careful, Iâm going to get caught. The cantos she picks are harmless really, unless you account for attracting ants because of the ambrosia. Maybe I can stay late after school and come home after sunset. Sheâll be mad, but sheâs always mad at me for something.
I get a tight feeling in my chest and brace myself against the wall. Something feels different today. Even Rose felt it.
I can hear Lula shout and Maks press down on his horn. A cold breeze blows through the window and knocks a photo off my altar. Itâs a picture of Aunt Rosaria. In it, Aunt Ro is alive and smiling. Her dress is as blue as the summer sky and in her arms is a crying baby. It was a few days after I was born, and my parents chose her as the godmother for my Birth Rites. Itâs how I want to think of her. Not dead. Not rotting. I put the picture back in place beside my turquoise prexâa brujaâs rosaryâand a candle thatâs been burned to a tiny stub and not replaced for months.
Something inside of me aches. âI miss you. Momâs getting crazier every day without you.â
I put on jeans and a plain gray T-shirt and fasten my watch. I gather my hair in a long ponytail. I stare at myself in the mirror. Sometimes Iâm afraid Iâm going to wake up and my magic is going to show. It shows on Lula. It makes her radiant, breathtaking. She walks with her head tilted to the sky, and a knowing smirk on her face because she can feel heads turning.
Iâm not jealous or anything. Lulaâs the beauty in the family, and Iâm okay with that. Rose is the special one, and Iâm okay with that too. Iâm not sure what I am yet, but Iâm certain I wasnât born to be a bruja.
I grab my backpack and double-check that everything I need is in there. Another breeze knocks Aunt Roâs photo from my altar again, kicking up the dust. Iâll have to clean it when I get home. Roseâs altar has a picture of our father and a statue of La Estrella, Lady of Hope and All the Worldâs Brightness. Lulaâs altar is the only clean part of her bedroom. Itâs a shrine to La Ola, Lady of the Seas and Changing Tides. Lulaâs got a prex made of every kind of stone, and she has all kinds of feathers and candles for all the moon cycles. She mostly chants her rezos for good grades and for Maks to stop a lot of goals.
I donât ask for anything. Not anymore.
I place a candle on top of Aunt Roâs photo, so it canât be blown off again. Then I go to shut the window but find it isnât open.
A third breeze.
I feel something inside of me stir, and I have to hold my breath to reel it back in. Itâs my guilt. The thing