sheâll try anything. Lula believes in ways that I donât.
âThere,â Lula says. âNow when we get home from school, we have to light the candle at sunset and do the chanting half of the canto.â
âIâm not sure about this, Lula,â I say. âMaybe we should save the spells for a day Iâm not so busy.â
Lula reaches over and slaps the back of my head. âSpells are for witches . Brujas do cantos.â
âSemantics,â I say. âAll brujas are witches but not all witches are brujas.â
âYouâre impossible,â Lula mutters, returning the Book to the family altar.
The kitchen fills with the sweet, rose-scented smoke. I turn off the burner and drain the rosewater into a mason jar. While Lula isnât looking, Rose sticks her finger in the ambrosia. I bite my lips to keep from laughing.
âYou always claim to be so busy,â Lula says, tracing her shimmering nail across the page. âItâs just school, Alex. This is your life.â
âYouâre starting to sound too much like Mom.â
âAnd you donât sound like her at all.â
âYou never want to listen to me. I have a really long day. First period gym, then student council, then class, then the paper. I have to use my lunch period to finish the reading on Romeo and Juliet . I have indoor track practice and lab andââ
âOh my goddess, please stop. No wonder your magic is blocked. Youâve got a broomstick up your butt.â
âMy magic isnât blocked .â I bite my tongue.
Lula shrugs and taps the metal whisk against the bowl to get rid of the excess ambrosia. Then she separates it into two clean mason jars. âI donât know why youâre more worried about school than your powers. Youâre going to overthink yourself to death.â
You donât understand , I want to say but donât. Lula isnât the one who got left back a year because she was too afraid to leave her room and missed too much school. Lula isnât the one whoâs seen or done the things I have.
âI know it seems scary,â Lula says, reaching over and tucking my hair behind my ear. âBut this is important. Waking your magic could really bring us together. We all know that ever since what happened to Dad, Ma hasnât been the same. All we need is a little push and youâll see. You canât have your Deathday until your powers show. Youâre going to be sixteen in less than two weeks. Itâs the perfect time. I know the other cantos didnât work, but thatâs why weâre going to try again.â
Deathday: a brujaâs coming-of-age ceremony. While some girls are having their bat mitzvahs, sweet sixteens, or quinceañeras, brujas get their Deathday. Thereâs no cut-off age, but puberty is when our magic develops. Sometimes, like with Rose, when youâre born with powers, the family chooses to wait a little while for them to mature. Over the years, modern brujas like to have Deathdays line up with birthdays to have even bigger celebrations. Nothing says âhappy birthdayâ like summoning the spirits of your dead relatives.
Lula ignores my worry and keeps trying to convince me sheâs right. âRemember my Deathday? Papa Philomeno himself appeared. And heâs been dead for like a hundred years. I went from healing paper cuts to mending your ankle that time you fell from the tree. Magic is in our blood. We come from a long line of powerful brujas.â
âA long line of dead brujas, you mean,â I say. Why do I bother? Lula doesnât want to hear the bad parts. She just wants to concentrate on the power instead of the consequences.
âYou say that now. Magic transforms you. Youâll see.â
I breathe deep, like there isnât enough air in the whole world. I brush my messy hair out of my face. Itâs easy for Lula to talk about power. She sees magic as