wantedââ She choked on her words. âYou said you had a surprise.â Matt didnât laugh at her. âI just wanted to see something.â
He knelt beside her. Sheâd been sucking on her hair and he pulled the wet strand from her mouth. âIâll show you something,â he said.
He knew a secret place, a cave heâd dug in the earth at the edge of the woods. He took her there and no one found them. They barely fit down the narrow mouth and had to lie chest to chest, not moving, faces close, legs entwined. The hole was damp with decaying roots and leaves; it smelled like the inside of an animal, her fatherâs bloody hands, a calf just born. She liked being swallowed. She liked this boy with sour breath and skinny arms. He held her tight but didnât rub against her, didnât make her jeans chafe her thighs, didnât bruise her ribs the way her brother Leon did when he paid her a dime to lie down with him.
Days later, she tried to find the cave alone, but a hard rain had made the roof collapse and filled the opening with silt. They could have been buried alive. She thought about that a lot. When Mama swore or Daddy pulled his belt from the loops, she said to herself: I could have died .
Willy knew his mother blamed Horton for the whole thing. âYou never should have cuffed him,â she said.
âI wanted him to understand.â
âWhat if it had been your boy?â
âI wouldâve whupped his ass.â
âYou should have taken him home instead of locking him up.â
âHow was I supposed to know his folks would leave him there all night?â
âYou shouldnât have told them the lights cost so damn much. The boy was just pulling a prank.â
âI donât make the laws, Flo. I just follow them.â
âWhy not chop off his hand?â
âHuh?â
âEye for an eye, Mr. High and Mighty.â
âI wasnât the judge. I didnât send him to that school.â
âYou cuffed him like a man. Took him to jail. You called it a felony.â
âI do my job. I do what I think is right.â
âAnd if some boy loses his head because youâre doing what you think is right, well thatâs just the price of justice.â
âI canât see the future, Flo.â
âYou canât see your own hand in the dark.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
But there was no explanation. Willyâs mother put on her coat and said she was going for a drive. Horton sat down at the kitchen table, his head in his hands. Willy wanted to go to him, wanted to sit beside him in the dark and say: Let the thief no longer steal, but rather let him labor, doing honest work with his hands . He knew the words from Sunday school, knew that all men were sinners, all were dirty. Only by Godâs grace would the chosen few be spared. He wished he could tell his father what heâd seen Iona Moon do with Matt Fry. If anyone touches an unclean thing, he shall be guilty . Why should decent folks feel any pity for people like that?
Willyâs sisters sneaked up behind him while he stood watching his father. Lorena grabbed his legs and Mariette knocked him over. They pinned him to the floor and started tickling. They werenât strong, but they were both fat. Once they were on top of him, he couldnât move. Willy heard the back door snap. Horton wasnât going to have any of their nonsense tonight. But his fatherâs presence was still in the house. Donât hurt your sisters , Willy . Lorena was crushing his bladder. Never hit a lady . Mariette shoved her fingers into his ribs, not tickling but jabbing, making him writhe. A man is stronger than any woman. Stronger in his body, stronger in his mind . He had to pee. Lorena had her big butt right on his pelvis. His arm was twisted behind his back. He felt tears sting his eyes, the hot shame, his bed wet again. Jesus, Willy . His