youâre sorry? By making it so she has to bury you, so she has to grieve? Are you punishing her?â
âNo!â His face, his voice, registered shock at the idea. âItâs my fault. Itâs all my fault.â
âAll your fault? I never believe anything is all one personâs fault. But letâs fix it. Letâs find the way you can make it up to her.â
âPhoebe, I owe almost five thousand gambling.â
âFive thousandâs hard. It sounds like it scares you to owe that much. I understand what it is to have money problems hanging over your head. Do you want Lori to have to pay your debt?â
âNo. If Iâm dead, nobody pays.â
âNobody? But sheâs your wife. Sheâs your legal wife.â Phoebe doubted there was any legal liability, but she could see the idea of it strike Joe. âShe could be responsible for your debts.â
âGod. Oh God.â
âI think I know how to help you with this, Joe. Joe? You know your boss is inside. Heâs inside there because heâs worried about you.â
âHeâs okay. Duncâs a good guy. I screwed him. Stole from him. I donât blame him for firing me.â
âI hear you say that, and know you understand youâre responsible for your mistakes. Youâre a responsible person, and you want to fix those mistakes. Duncâs a good guy, you tell me, then Iâm going to believe he understands that, too. Iâll talk to him for you if you want. Iâm good at talking. If heâll give you an extension on paying back the money, that would help, wouldnât it?â
âIâ¦I donât know.â
âIâll talk to him for you.â
âHeâs a nice guy. I stole from him.â
âYou were feeling desperate and scared, and you made a mistake. I sense youâre sorry for that.â
âI am sorry.â
âIâll talk to him for you,â she repeated. âYou need to give me the gun, and come back off the ledge. You donât want to hurt Lori.â
âI donât, butââ
âIf you could talk to Lori right now, what would you say?â
âIâ¦I guess that I donât know how it got this far, and Iâm sorry. I love her. I donât want to lose her.â
âIf you donât want to lose her, if you love her, you have to give me the gun and come back off the ledge. Otherwise, Joe, all youâre leaving her with is grief and blame.â
âItâs not her fault.â
Phoebe eased off the ledge, held out a hand. âYouâre right, Joe. Youâre absolutely right. Now, show her.â
He stared at the gun, stared as Phoebe slowly reached out to take it. It was slippery with his sweat as she flipped on the safety, secured it in her belt. âCome on off the ledge, Joe.â
âWhatâs going to happen?â
âCome on off the ledge and Iâll explain it. I wonât lie to you.â Once again, she offered her hand. Shouldnât, she knew. Negotiators could be pulled off by a jumper. But she kept her eyes on his, then clasped her fingers tight on his hand.
When his feet touched the roof, he simply slid down to the floor to sob again. She went with him, draped her arm around him, and shook her head fiercely at the cops who came through the door.
âItâs going to be all right. Joe, youâre going to have to go with the police. Youâre going to need to have an evaluation. But itâs going to be all right.â
âIâm sorry.â
âI know you are. Now you come on with me. Come on with me now.â She helped him up, took his weight as they walked to the door. âLetâs get you some clothes on. No cuffs,â she snapped. âJoe, one of the officers is going to go get you a shirt, some pants, shoes. Is that all right?â When he nodded, she gestured one of the officers toward the bedroom.
âAm I going