asked. âThatâs very old-school. I thought it was all about theory these days. Who was Laclos anyway?â
âHe wrote Dangerous Liaisons . You know the film?â
âYeah, Malkovich was a total prick. What is it with these films and young girls? Why are men obsessed with virgins?â
âYou have to ask?â Michael smiled. âWhen they look like Uma Thurman? Youâre like her, you know. Tall. Blonde, grey eyes, young. What man wouldnât find you attractive?â
âGive it a rest.â
âItâs a compliment,â he persisted. âWomen your age think everything is sexist. Everything is about politics, about being politically correct. But thatâs not what the story is about. Itâs about desire. Itâs about love.â
âItâs about power, not love.â
âIf you can explain the difference to me, Iâd be pleased to hear it. People destroy each other. That is what they do. One day youâll understand.â He stopped himself.
I didnât like what he was saying; but he affected me. I felt like when I breathed him in, he changed me. He made my heart race, my eyes sting. I wondered if this was what people meant by âchemistryâ.
âYou can see why I donât like to talk about my taste in books on the first date,â he said. âWant another margarita?â
At the end of the night Michael took me along Rodeo Drive. We were driving through Beverly Hills at three or so in the morning when a siren went off behind us and stayed there. Michael pulled over. Drunk, I opened the door to get out of the car and Michael pushed me back into my seat, startling me.
âWhat are you doing driving around at this hour?â asked one of the cops, the one who was loomingâslightly theatrically it seemed to meâover Michael. His gun was in his hand, though, which was not the kind of theatre I wanted to see.
âMy friend is new in town, Iâm showing her around.â
âSure.â They stood over him, belligerent, lecturing him to be more careful. Their guns remained in their hands all the while.
After they left Michael sat staring at the wheel. âI will never, never get used to the police in this country. They really make you feel they could shoot you at any moment. I need a drink.â He turned to me, agitated. âAnd what did you think you were doing? You could have been shot, trying to get out of the car like that.â
I apologised, put a hand on his arm. âCome back to my room,â I said. âI think thereâs something to drink there.â I was lying, I had no idea if there was anything to drink in my room or not.
As it turned out there wasnât a mini bar. Michael sat down on the only chair, his head in his hands. âLetâs go to my place. Iâve got some tequila.â
I sat on the end of the bed, reached out, barely touched the back of his trembling hand with a finger. âStay here,â I said.
Michael hesitated a long, long moment before sliding out of the chair and kneeling on the floor before me. He took my face in his hands, and paused again. âIâm not sure about this,â he said. And then we kissed.
âFeel free to keep trying,â I said, after Michael and I had been having sex for an hour or so, âbut I can tell you now itâs not going to happen. Not after hours of drinking. Not the first time.â
âThere might not be a second,â he said and I couldnât tell from his voice whether he was joking or not. âIâd make the most of it if I were you.â It had been a long night. We finally called it quits, the job half done.
âYou are beautiful, you know,â he stroked me gently. âI meant what I said. But youâve got more flesh on you than Uma. I like your flesh.â
âOne more mention of Uma Thurman and this affair is over,â I said, causing Michael to laugh out