running,butassoonasIheardthembehindme,Iknewwhattheywere.”
“Werewolves...,”Coopersaid,hisgriponmetighteningeverso slightly.Iwonderedifhenoticed.
“Exactly . Oneofthemtackledmefrombehind.Icrackedmyhead onalogandknockedmyselfout.Iwokeupadaylater.They'dbrought mebacktothecabinwheretheylived.Theypatchedmeup,treatingwhat theycould,andthentheyhelpedmegethome,”Isaid,hedgingslightly.
“Tomy mate .”
“Yourmate?But—”
“Idon'tknowwhattheysensed,Coop,butthat'swhattheysaid.
Theytreatedmewiththeutmostrespect.Theyneverlaidanunwanted fingeronmethewholetimeIwasaroundthem―barringthetackling incident,ofcourse,”Iexplained.“Therewassomethingabouttheway theysaidmate...itmademewonderifImighthavebeenintroubleifthey hadn'tsensedwhattheydid.”
“Youmighthave,”Coopergrowled.“Andwhoexactlywerethese wolves?”
“Idon'tknow.Theymusthavementionedtheirnames,butIdon't remember.”
“Youdon'tremember?”
“Hello,Ihadaheadinjury.Wasn'tthinkingclearly.”
“You'reawalkingheadinjury,”hemocked,givingmeaplayful nudgeinanefforttocalmhisgrowingrage.“Sodoyouknow where you were?”
“SomewhereupinMaine,theysaid.NeartheCanadianborder.
Theysaidtheyhadbeentryingtotrackmeforawhile,buttheycouldn't catchme.Asfarastheyknew,IhadonlybeeninnorthernMainefora fewdays.Theyneversawmebeforethat.”
“SoScarletwasonthemove?”
“Iguess.”
“Thatwouldexplainwhyitwassohardtofindyou.”
“I'msorry,Coop.Iknowyoutried.IfIcouldhavestoppedher—”
“Makemeadeal,okay?”heasked.“Nomoreapologizingtonight.I thinkitactuallymakesmeangrier.”
“Fine.Consideritretractedthen,”Isaid,yawning.“I'mgoingtotry andsleepnow.”
“Okay,Rubes,butIgottasaythatsomethingisn'taddingupwithall ofthis,”hesaid,adjustinghisarmundermyhead.“Imean...where's Scarlet?Shedidn'tcomeoutwhenyouwereinthewoods;shedidn't comeoutwhenIwasreadytoattackyou.She lives formomentslikethat.
Whydidn'tshecomeouttohelpyou?”
“Becauseshe'sgone,Cooper,”Iwhisperedinreply.
“Gone?”heasked,hisdisbeliefapparent.
“Yep.Gone,asinleftthebuilding.”
“But you're thebuilding.She'spartof you .”
“Exactly.”
“I'mnottryingtobethickhere,Ruby,butIdon'tgetit.”
“Idon'teither,Coop,butmyguessisthatwhateverdarkenedspace sheshovedmedownintoisexactlywhereshe'sgone.Idon'thearher.I can'tfeelher.Andnoamountoffearoranxietyevencoaxesher,”I informedhim.“Somethingwentwrong,Cooper.Really,reallywrong.”
“Youneedtotell—”
“Don'tsayit. Please don'tsayit,”Isaid,proppingmyselfuponmy arms.“It'sprettyplainthathewantsnothingtodowithme,andI certainlycan'tblamehimforthat.Tellinghimwon'tchangeanything.
Notrightnow,anyway.”Ilaybackdown,cuttingofftheconversation beforemytrueemotionsspilledout.Sean'sdismissalhadbeenaknife throughmyheart.
Cooperkissedmeonmyforeheadandpulledmeincloser.
“Ifthat'swhatyouwant.I'llleaveitalonefornow.”
Isaidnothing,butsnuggledintohimtightly.Iwasdonetalking aboutthingsIcouldn'tunderstand.Couldn'tchange.Couldn'tfix.I wantedtopressintothecomfortthatCooperprovidedanddreamthe pleasantdreamsthatalwayscamewhenIwasinhisnetofsafety.
Cooperwas home .
AndIwasgladtobethere.
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"Iknowyou'reexhausted,Rubes,butyouneedtocallPeyta,"Coopersaid asheexpertlyscrambledeggs."Ican'tevenbegintodescribethestress she'sbeenfeeling.Firstthewholethingwithherdad,thenyou..."He pausedmid-stir,staringatthepaninhishand.
"WhydoIfeellikethere'ssomethingelseyou'releavingoffthat list?"Iaskedwhilegingerlysippingmyorangejuice.Afterscarfing downthenoodlesthenightbefore,Ifeltterrible―mystomachwasn't adjustingwelltofood.
Hesighedheavilybeforeturningtolookatme.
"It'sJay."
Myheartinstantlysank.Myattentionwasimmediatelybrought backtothescreamsI'dheardcomingfromthehallwayoutsideSean's apartmentthenightthatScarlettookover.Jayhadbeenoutthere, guardingthedoor.
“Nooo...,”Iwhispered,eyessearchingCooper'sforanyshredof evidencethatwhatIfearedwasn'ttrue.AllIfoundinhisexpressionwas