oblivion. Instead of forgetting about one thing I now needed to forget about two things.
John and now Cedric.
Cedric...sweet Cedric. He had been so sure of himself when he had approached me boldly but once we got in the bedroom I knew he hadn't had much experience. I had to guide him but it had been all sweet. His neediness, his eagerness to please me. He had kept calling my name over and over again as he hovered above me, that sweet look of strained pleasure on his face.
No, he was nothing like John.
I closed my eyes and rested it against my arm on the table. No, Cedric was nothing like his brother so how could I have slept with him? My only excuse was that I was desperate. So damn desperate.
The knocking on my door jerked me away from my drowsy sleep. The banging got louder and I groaned, my head already throbbing from a headache.
"Coming," I grumbled. "I'm coming!" God, who could it be at this hour? I opened the door and froze. "Cedric?"
Cedric stood before me, hair messy, cheeks flushed and suit disarrayed. "Kaito."
I stared at him, completely surprised by his appearance. "Cedric? What are you doing-"
"You left," he accused.
I swallowed. "I had to."
"You left me."
I closed my eyes. "I had no choice."
"There's always a choice."
I opened my eyes and stared at him. "Cedric, what we did...I'm sorry. I shouldn't have taken advantage of you. I'm the adult here. I shouldn't have-"
"I wanted to do it," he said, cutting me off again. "And I'd do it again."
God, he was serious. "Cedric, no. We can't. It can't happen again. I was wrong." Using him as John's replacement would be wrong. I couldn't use this boy like that.
"Kai," Cedric grabbed my wrist. "I want to."
I pulled away. "Go home, Ced."
He blinked at me. "You're turning me away?"
"Yes."
"Don't." He paused. "Please."
Why is it that he looked like he was about to cry? Like an abandoned puppy, he stared at me pathetically. Cedric, who we all had thought was too mature for his age was looking at me like this. He was still a child after all.
"Don't," he repeated, taking another step to me. "Don't." His lips grazed against mine. "Don't." They trailed down to my jaw, then back up to the corner of my eye. "Stay with me."
"I'm sorry, Ced. I just can't. I can't." I stepped back and closed the door at his tortured eyes and leaned against it. I should have known that Cedric had wanted more from me than "just sex." I should have known...
Now it's too late.
"Kai?" I heard Cedric's voice from behind the door.
I stared up at the ceiling, telling myself to walk away and not answer but I answered him anyway. "Yes?"
"John and Julia are going to their Honeymoon tomorrow."
Ah...there's that aching pain in my chest again. "Yes. I know."
"Will you be lonely?"
Yes.
"No."
"Liar."
I chuckled and sniffed, rubbing my eyes tiredly. "Ced, please. Go home."
"I'll be back tomorrow."
"I won't let you in."
"Then I'll keep coming back," he said firmly. "And I'll wait right here by this door until you open it for me."
"Go home," I repeated and finally walked away from the door. "I've had enough of Fitzpatrick men."
I've always been a bad liar.
Chapter Three
" Everytime we touch I get feeling and everytime we kiss I swear I can fly. Can't you feel my heart beat fast? I want this to last, need you by my side"- Cascada
+Kai+
Cedric's been true to his words. For the next three days he'd show up at my apartment after classes and sits right next to my door.
He never said anything when I came up the steps and entered my apartment after a long day at work. While teaching elementary school kids how to use musical instruments was rewarding, it could also be so tiring. Speaking of tiring, I didn’t understand how Cedric could just continue sitting there, leaning his back against the wall, hands shoved in his coat pockets day after day. For the past three days not once had I acknowledge him yet he seemed fine with that because he kept coming back even in this cold
John and now Cedric.
Cedric...sweet Cedric. He had been so sure of himself when he had approached me boldly but once we got in the bedroom I knew he hadn't had much experience. I had to guide him but it had been all sweet. His neediness, his eagerness to please me. He had kept calling my name over and over again as he hovered above me, that sweet look of strained pleasure on his face.
No, he was nothing like John.
I closed my eyes and rested it against my arm on the table. No, Cedric was nothing like his brother so how could I have slept with him? My only excuse was that I was desperate. So damn desperate.
The knocking on my door jerked me away from my drowsy sleep. The banging got louder and I groaned, my head already throbbing from a headache.
"Coming," I grumbled. "I'm coming!" God, who could it be at this hour? I opened the door and froze. "Cedric?"
Cedric stood before me, hair messy, cheeks flushed and suit disarrayed. "Kaito."
I stared at him, completely surprised by his appearance. "Cedric? What are you doing-"
"You left," he accused.
I swallowed. "I had to."
"You left me."
I closed my eyes. "I had no choice."
"There's always a choice."
I opened my eyes and stared at him. "Cedric, what we did...I'm sorry. I shouldn't have taken advantage of you. I'm the adult here. I shouldn't have-"
"I wanted to do it," he said, cutting me off again. "And I'd do it again."
God, he was serious. "Cedric, no. We can't. It can't happen again. I was wrong." Using him as John's replacement would be wrong. I couldn't use this boy like that.
"Kai," Cedric grabbed my wrist. "I want to."
I pulled away. "Go home, Ced."
He blinked at me. "You're turning me away?"
"Yes."
"Don't." He paused. "Please."
Why is it that he looked like he was about to cry? Like an abandoned puppy, he stared at me pathetically. Cedric, who we all had thought was too mature for his age was looking at me like this. He was still a child after all.
"Don't," he repeated, taking another step to me. "Don't." His lips grazed against mine. "Don't." They trailed down to my jaw, then back up to the corner of my eye. "Stay with me."
"I'm sorry, Ced. I just can't. I can't." I stepped back and closed the door at his tortured eyes and leaned against it. I should have known that Cedric had wanted more from me than "just sex." I should have known...
Now it's too late.
"Kai?" I heard Cedric's voice from behind the door.
I stared up at the ceiling, telling myself to walk away and not answer but I answered him anyway. "Yes?"
"John and Julia are going to their Honeymoon tomorrow."
Ah...there's that aching pain in my chest again. "Yes. I know."
"Will you be lonely?"
Yes.
"No."
"Liar."
I chuckled and sniffed, rubbing my eyes tiredly. "Ced, please. Go home."
"I'll be back tomorrow."
"I won't let you in."
"Then I'll keep coming back," he said firmly. "And I'll wait right here by this door until you open it for me."
"Go home," I repeated and finally walked away from the door. "I've had enough of Fitzpatrick men."
I've always been a bad liar.
Chapter Three
" Everytime we touch I get feeling and everytime we kiss I swear I can fly. Can't you feel my heart beat fast? I want this to last, need you by my side"- Cascada
+Kai+
Cedric's been true to his words. For the next three days he'd show up at my apartment after classes and sits right next to my door.
He never said anything when I came up the steps and entered my apartment after a long day at work. While teaching elementary school kids how to use musical instruments was rewarding, it could also be so tiring. Speaking of tiring, I didn’t understand how Cedric could just continue sitting there, leaning his back against the wall, hands shoved in his coat pockets day after day. For the past three days not once had I acknowledge him yet he seemed fine with that because he kept coming back even in this cold
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