you mean âbe a patientâ?
I was the one who felt drunk now, not Mama.
I closed my eyes and tried to remember exactly what had happened. It had all happened so quickly. Mama was rushing through the rain as if she had an appointment. I ran behind her and kept calling to her. I was only a few inches away when I heard the sound of tires squealing. Right now, I could visualize the front of an automobile but little more.
Where was Mama now? Why had I been left in a hallway? Who had put me here? Who was looking after me? When I tried to lift my head, the whole corridor spun, and I was nauseated immediately. I kept my eyes closed and waited until the dizziness subsided, and then I opened my eyes slowly and took a deep breath. There was nothing I could do but wait.
Finally, I felt myself moving and looked down towardmy feet to see a different nurse pushing the gurney. She looked younger than the first nurse and had a shock of brown hair drifting out from under her cap and down over her right eye. As she pushed my gurney, she blew the loose strands away from her eye.
âWhatâs happening to me?â I asked.
âYouâre going to X-ray,â she said.
âJust relax.â
âWhereâs my mother?â
âYouâre going to X-ray.â
Didnât she understand my question?
âMy mother,â I said.
âRelax,â she told me.
âWeâre having a bad night here. Weâre doing our best to get to everyone as quickly as we possibly can. Iâve got to get you processed before I see about anyone or anything else.â
Processed?
What did that mean? With all that ached on me, it was hard to keep talking, keep asking questions, and she didnât seem to want to talk much, either.
I felt myself being navigated through the corridor to an elevator. When I was in it, I hoped she would tell me more now that we were away from all the bedlam, but there was another nurse in the elevator, and they started to have a conversation over me as if I werenât even there. I heard them complaining about some doctor who hadnât shown up and another nurse who was always late.
âLike any of us want to be here on time?â my nurse said.
When the elevator door opened, the other nurse helped wheel me out and then went off in another direction. Outside radiology, there were two other gurneys lined up, one with a young man with a bloodstained face and a heavilybandaged arm and the other with an elderly African American woman. A younger African American woman stood beside her, holding her hand.
âJust try to relax,â my nurse said again, and put a clipboard at my feet. âSomeone will be out to get you soon.â
âWhat about my mother?â I asked.
She walked off without replying. I began to wonder if anyone could hear me. Maybe I thought I was talking but I wasnât. The younger African American woman looked at me and smiled. The X-ray room door opened, and another patient was wheeled out in a wheelchair. He was an elderly man in a shirt and tie, wearing a blue cap with white letters that spelled âU.S.S. Enterprise.â He looked perfectly healthy, even bored. A male nurse pulled the gurney with the young man into the radiology suite.
âNot much longer now,â the younger woman told the older one.
âYou hope,â the older woman said. âYouâll be on social security, too, by the time we get outta here.â
The younger woman laughed. Then she looked at me again. âWhat happened to you, honey?â
âWe were hit by a car,â I said. âMy mother and me, but I donât know where my mother is.â
âDownstairs waiting, for sure,â she said. âTook us five hours to get this far.â
I was relieved to see she heard me. âI donât know how long Iâve been here.â
âLong,â the older lady said. âYou drip through this place like maple syrup.â
The younger