like thirty pieces of silver. Accepting the bequest means I accept what heâand my grandmotherâdid. And I *donât*. At all.
He could understand that .
Is your grandmother still alive? Maybe you could go and see her. Explain how you feel. And maybe she can apologise on his behalf as well as her own.
I donât know. But, even if she is alive, I canât see her apologising. What kind of mother chucks her pregnant daughter into the street, Clarence? OK, so they were angry and hurt and shocked at the timeâI can understand that. But my mum didnât know that my dad was married or she would never have dated him, much less anything else. And theyâve had twenty-nine years to get over it. As far as I know, theyâve never so much as seen a photo of me, let alone cuddled me as a baby or sent me a single birthday card.
And that had to hurt, being rejected by your family when they didnât even know you .
Itâs their loss, he typed. But maybe they didnât know how to get in touch with your mother.
Surely all you have to do is look up someone in the electoral roll, or even use a private detective if you canât be bothered to do it yourself?
Thatâs not what I meant, Georgy. Itâs not the finding her that wouldâve been hardâitâs breaking the ice and knowing what to say. Sometimes pride gets in the way.
Ironic, because he knew he was guilty of that, too. Not knowing how to challenge his fatherâbecause how could you challenge someone when you were always in the wrong?
Maybe. But why leave the property to *me* and not to my mum? It doesnât make sense.
Pride again? Gabriel suggested. And maybe he thought it would be easier to approach you.
From the grave?
Could be Y-chromosome logic?
That earned him a smiley face .
Georgy, you really need to talk to your mum about it.
I would. Except her phone is switched to voicemail.
Shame.
I know this is crazy, she added, but you were the one I really wanted to talk to about this. You see things so clearly.
It was the first genuine compliment heâd had in a long timeâand it was one he really appreciated.
Thank you. Glad I can be here for you. Thatâs what friends are for.
And they were friends. Even though theyâd never met, he felt their relationship was more real and more honest than the ones in his real-life worldâwhere ironically he couldnât be his real self.
Iâm sorry for whining.
Youâre not whining. Youâve just been left something by the last person you expected to leave you anything. Of course youâre going to wonder why. And if it is an apology, youâre right that itâs too little, too late. He shouldâve patched up the row years ago and been proud of your mum for raising a bright daughter whoâs also a decent human being.
Careful, Clarence, she warned. I might not be able to get through the door of the coffee shop when I leave, my headâs so swollen.
Coffee shop? Even though he knew it was ridiculousâthis wasnât the only coffee shop in Surrey Quays, and he had no idea where she worked so she could be anywhere in London right nowâGabriel found himself pausing and glancing round the room, just in case she was there.
But everyone in the room was either sitting in a group, chatting animatedly, or looked like a businessman catching up with admin work.
There was always the chance that Georgygirl was a man, but he didnât think so. He didnât think she was a bored, middle-aged housewife posing as a younger woman, either. And sheâd just let slip that her newly pregnant mother had been thrown out twenty-nine years ago, which would make her around twenty-eight. His own age.
I might not be able to get through the door of the coffee shop, my headâs so swollen.
Ha. This was the teasing, quick-witted Georgygirl that had attracted him in the first place. He smiled.
We need deflationary measures, then. OK.