Falling Behind (Falling Series) Read Free Page B

“You feel so good , Baby. Can’t I just put it in a little?”
    I bit my cheek to keep myself from sobbing. When I didn’t answer he continued . “If you love me, Reese, you’ll let me be your first. I won’t hurt you, I promise.” I felt the pressure of his hips pushing into me as the weight of his body pressed against me. Tears rolled down my face. This was it. He was taking what was mine to give.  He was right. I said I loved him. I am his girlfriend. I owe him this.
    “Ah, you’re so tight. I love the way you feel.”
    I hate the way you feel inside me. It hurts so badly. When will it be over? I stayed silent and still, with alligator tears gathering in my ear. I needed this to end. I wanted to go home. Josh grunted a few times and thankfully it was over.
    “I’m sorry , Baby. You just felt so good, I couldn’t keep going.” He turned my face toward him. “Are you hurt?”
    I nodded. The lump in my throat keeping me from talking. He pulled out and the condom was covered in blood. I don’t remember him putting one on, thank God he did. I wasn’t on my period so he had ripped me. I looked away.
    “Shit , Reese, there’s fucking blood everywhere. What the hell?”
    After standing and putting my underwear back on, I gathered his duvet and went to rinse it out before putting it in the wash ing machine. I choked back the tears and cleared my throat. “There, all taken care of. Can you take me home now?”
    He wrapped me in a hug, “I’m sorry I hurt you. I should have been gentler. Next time will be better, Baby. Better for you.”
    “Yeah, next time. I really am ready to go home , now.” I walked toward his front door and I could hear him mumbling to himself. I really didn’t care what he said. I wanted to be home.
    I cried in the shower and then continued to cry myself to sleep that night. He took the only thing that was mine to give. He took my virginity.
     
    “Reese!” Candice yelled from up ahead of me. I swiped away the single tear that slowly escaped down my cheek.
    “What?” I picked up my pace and bounced up to my friend.
    “Where were you? I’ve been calling your name, forever!” Candice glared at me.
    Glancing at my surroundings I realized I made her walk more than half way. I must of really zoned out and slowed way down. “Sorry , I was thinking.”
    “Everything okay?” She threw her arm around my shoulders. Candice was a few inches taller than me. She had lean, long dancer legs, a tiny waist and huge boobs, which she found annoying and said got in her way. I envied her. I had no shape to me. I was barely five foot two and the only thing I had going for me was a butt and blue eyes.
    “Yeah, just thinking about Josh.”
    “Wanna talk about it?”
    “Nope.”
    “Okay, then, we can talk about my problems.” I laughed.  True Candice. If there was nothing major to discuss, she was going to talk about herself and what she thought were issues.
    “Jonathan asked me out, again. ” She paused, letting that one sink in. Candice had been dating Alex for over four months. I’m pretty sure this was a record.  She’d been with Alex for longer than she’d been with all her other boyfriends, combined I didn’t understand it, she liked dating.  A lot.  But not just one guy—especially for this long.
    “So , why haven’t you gone out with him, then?” I looked over at her as we headed up her driveway. Candice stayed unusually quiet.
    “Why haven’t you broken up with Alex , yet?” I opened the front door and headed into the kitchen. Mrs. Warner, who always wanted me to call her Cecilia, was in there loading the dishwasher.
    “Hi Reese , Honey, are you hungry?” She gave me a quick hug and stepped over to the refrigerator. “I put dinner away, but I can pull it out. I’m sure it’s still warm.”
    “Thank you , Cecilia, but I’m fine.” She looked me over. “I promise, I ate with my parents before I came over.”
    “Alright . Well, if you get hungry or thirsty, you