role, apart from what she said about Miss Pritchard. And I felt a stab of anxiety in case she thought it wasnât worth saying anything as Iâm only Year Seven, and not likely to get a main part.
I knew really that it was only one of those silly night-time thoughts, because Matron would hardly start chatting when it was time for bed, and anyway, it was a good thing that sheâd not made a comment because that showed she thought it was perfectly natural for me to audition for a main part. After all, Cara got a main part when she was only Year Seven, didnât she? So why shouldnât I? Yes, I would just shock everyone by being absolutely stunningly fantastic at the auditions.
There was a nasty scratchy niggle at the back of my tired mind trying to point out that I had to be better than Cara if I wanted to get the part of Amy, and that maybe I ought to think of another part. But I had set my heart on Amy and nothing else would do, so I ignored the nasty niggle and instead went into a beautiful daydream about Mum and Dad and Roxanne sitting proudly in the audience with Grandma, and everyone clapping their heads off, or maybe that should be clapping their hands offâ¦
I was practically asleep but something made me snap on my little night light and pull my script out from under my pillow.
âDonât suppose anyone wants to test me on my speech?â I whispered into the gloom, but they must have all been in the land of snooze, so I tested myself and finished up by reading through the whole script again. It was nearly eleven oâclock when I finally switched off the light.
The next morning I felt so full of happiness about the auditions being one day nearer that I shot out of bed and off to the bathroom in about two seconds flat, which earned me a round of applause from the others as Iâm usually the last up. When we were on the point of setting off for breakfast I suddenly had the urge to get hold of a copy of Little Women so I could have that lovely feeling I always get when I read the book and find myself in the world of the four sisters, imagining myself as Amy. I also wanted to recall every single bit of the story, because the mini-scripts that Miss Pritchard gave us were a short version of the whole play, just for learning parts for the auditions.
Thereâs a small library in one of the common rooms, which consists of a few shelves of books that no one ever looks at. At least I donât. But right then I felt like the biggest bookworm in the world, because I was so dying to read Little Women. It was the one and only book Iâd ever actually noticed in the common room, because I remember thinking that the front cover was quite plain compared to the cover of the version that Iâd got at home.
In the common room I scanned the books on all three shelves as fast as I could, expecting to see Little Women immediately, but it wasnât there, which made me panic slightly because Iâd set my heart on reading it before Thursday. So then I decided to slow down and look carefully because I must have missed it. No one ever takes these books out. Do they? I crossed my fingers as I examined every title on the top shelf. Please let it be here somewhere. Please let it⦠But it wasnât, so I started on the second shelf, still praying hard, and it wasnât there either. By the time Iâd done the last shelf my spirits had sunk down to Australia.
I walked over to breakfast in a bad mood, but by the time I joined the queue for hot meals, Iâd had an inspirational idea. I could go to the library in the English block straight after breakfast. There would most likely be a copy in there. Iâd be a bit late for double maths, which was the first lesson, but I could probably get Jess to give some excuse to Mr. Ledbetter for me. I knew she wouldnât be over the moon about that idea though, because it wasnât the first time Iâd asked her, as I donât like being
Temple Grandin, Richard Panek