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imagine that soon, Jenna will find a guy that will finally have the winning ticket.  She will fall in love with him and buy her house and have the happy family she has always wished for.  As for Mya, who knows if she will stay here, in Portland?  Nurses can get jobs anywhere.  Her boyfriend Kyle just got hired at an architect firm downtown, but he could move too.  Their relationship has evolved quite well in the last year.  Mya tries to be the independent wonder woman, but I could see her marrying Kyle if he asked her.  Despite my bitterness and envy, they are quite a couple.  He is always very trusting of her when we go out which is an important factor in a relationship.  Kyle does not play the jealous games that Josh would always play with me.  The last minute cancellations so he could hang out with the boys or the famous lines like “babe we are just friends, I have known her for years.”  Although I have learned many lessons from my failed relationships I keep wondering if I will continue this pattern of disasters.  As the world spins round and round, I never quite feel like I am in the flow.  Each day, a new man meets a new woman in the deli line or at the new hip restaurant.  They go out on a few dates and realize they are perfect for each other.  That eventually turns into love, marriage and children.  Sure, it sounds like a fantasy, but if you think about it, it is kind of realistic.  However, I am never able to fathom that fantasy becoming a reality in my life.  In fact, I question if I will ever find the right guy for myself and I sometimes wonder if I am not better off.
     

Chapter Four
     
     
     
    After an eventful evening last night, I decide that my Sunday needs to be quiet time.  After doing my boring chores of cleaning out the litter box and doing laundry, I reward myself with a trip to the video store.  Yes I know most video stores are now defunct but it takes me a long time to jump on these new bandwagons like getting your movies from a vending machine or in the mail.  Plus, the store I go to always has cool movies from the 80’s.   
     
    As I walk into the video store, I notice that I really am the only one here.  I suppose this gives me ample room to stroll down the aisle and not be afraid I will step on the children as I do so.  People really should watch their children better in video stores.  Don’t they know that others are entranced in the video wall?   They cannot be expected to look down each time to see if little short people are in the way.  It creates far too many opportunities to miss a must see video.  I am not speaking from experience however, just an observation. 
     
    “Ouch!” I bellow as I’m trampled by a tall man in the comedy section.
     
    “Oh sorry.  You know, you really shouldn’t be sitting down in a video store.  It leaves many opportunities for someone to step on you.”  The man replies as if I am the one who has made the mistake of stepping on a grown adult!  As I stand up, I notice that he really isn’t that tall.  He is barely 6 feet.  Yet, his posture and disposition says something different. 
     
    “Excuse me, but I was not sitting down.  This isn’t Barnes and Noble you know.  I was simply kneeling to see the movies on the lower shelf, if it’s any of your concern.  And why aren’t you looking where you are going?”  The rude 6 foot tall man rolls his eyes and proceeds to stroll down the aisle, apparently not concerned at all.  Who apologizes with a lecture?  That is not an apology!
     
    “Jenna you won’t believe what happened to me today at the video store!” I say in a huff as I walk into my apartment, trying to juggle the cell phone, keys and keep the cat from running out the door in escape.
     
    “Um, let’s see, they told you about this really cool thing called Netflix?” she thinks she is so funny sometimes. 
     
    “No!  This totally rude guy stepped on me when I was kneeling down to look at the