the roof to the ground as easily as another person stepped out of her bed, despite their pleas for her to stop.
Theyâd shrieked when sheâd jumpedâbut Ash hadnât detected any relief from them when sheâd landed on her feet, uninjured. Thereâd only been fear, followed by hot anger.
Another nurse had quit after that, screaming to her supervisor that sheâd expected Nightingale House to treat only drugaddicted celebrities and depressed aristos, and that sheâd left the government-run hospitals for a posh situation to avoid the psychos. Ash had decided to leave, too, albeit for a different reason. The answer to the one question that interested herâ Who am I? âhadnât been at Nightingale House. No answers were thereâexcept for one, and sheâd asked Dr. Cawthorne for that information during her final therapy session.
âA posh hospital must be expensive,â sheâd said. âSo who is paying for my treatment?â
Heâd paled. In the months since sheâd begun speaking, the wrinkles around Cawthorneâs eyes and mouth had become more pronounced. His skin had loosened as if heâd dropped weight. But although sheâd frightened him at times, heâd never lost color in his face or broken out with a sheen of sweat, as he had then.
His gaze had skidded away from hers. âThe money comes from a numbered account. The donor wishes to remain anonymous.â
âBut you know who it is.â
His hands trembled. âYes.â
âAnd she knows who I am.â
âProbably,â heâd answered, before looking at Ash with surprise. âHow did you know it was a she ?â
Because a woman had brought her to Nightingale House. Ash avoided the memory of her almost as fiercely as the memory of the dark figure, but she could recall the womanâs face, surrounded by dark hairâand the eyes containing a madness that went deeper than anyone elseâs at that hospital. Yet despite her obvious insanity, the woman hadnât remained here; sheâd left Ash behind instead.
Dr. Cawthorne leaned forward, his urgency and panic rushing his words. âI cannot tell you, do you understand? It was part of the deal. If you woke up, I wasnât to tell you anything. I wasnât to tell anyone . But no one thought you would wake up. She said the weak halflings rarely did.â
âHalflings? What is that?â And was Ash one of them?
He only shook his head. âI made a bargain. So I canât tell you, do you understand ?â
Ash had understood, though she couldnât remember how or why she did. She knew that bargains should be avoided, but if they had to be made, they should never be broken. At the very thought of it, ice seemed to form the length of her spine, similar to the cold fear she sensed from Cawthorne.
Similar to his, but so much stronger. A survival instinct.
With effort, sheâd suppressed the tremors threatening to shake her body, her voice. âYou canât tell me who I am or anything about her,â Ash had said. âBut what do you get out of this?â
âShe knows that I once made an . . . error during the treatment of a patient. I keep you here in exchange for her silence.â Heâd brought a handkerchief to his brow and mopped away the sweat. âAnd eventually, Iâll publish a series of papers about you. Youâre a fascinating study, Ash.â
So he was saving his own ass, and using her for his professional advancement. Ash had watched enough television to know that the appropriate response to his confession was a sense of betrayal and outrage. She didnât feel either emotion, but she had no intention of letting him continue to use herâand if he couldnât give her answers, sheâd find someone who would.
His relief had been palpable when she dropped the subject and theyâd continued the session as usual. Sheâd waited until after