Ethereal, but solid, too.
âTalk to me, sweetheart,â I whispered when Iâd recovered enough to speak. âTell me whoâwho did this to you.â
She shook her head. Was she refusing to tell me, or was it that she didnât know who her murderer was? Yes, sheâd denied her stepfatherâs guilt with a shake of her head, but that didnât mean sheâd recognized her killer. He or she might have been a stranger. Or perhaps she hadnât actually seen the person at all; I wasnât even sure how or where sheâd been killed. The police werenât releasing that information and there was no visible indication of trauma in her appearance, either.
Still, I had a strong intuitive sense that she was keeping a secret.
I got up off my knees, sat on the edge of the bed I was still too afraid to sleep in. Gillian perched beside me, looking up into my face with enormous, imploring eyes.
âHoney,â I said carefully, âdid you see the person who hurt you?â
Again, she shook her head, another clear no. There had been a slight hesitation, though.
I let out a breath. âBut youâre sure it wasnât your stepfather?â
She nodded vigorously.
I was about to ask how she could be so certain when the phone on my bedside table rang, a shrill jangling that made my nerves jump.
Gillian instantly evaporated.
I picked up the receiver more out of reflex than any desire to talk to anyone. âHello?â
âItâs Tucker.â
I closed my eyes. Opened them again right away, in case some psycho was about to spring out of the woodwork and pounce. âWhat?â I asked, none too graciously.
He let out a sigh. âLook, I donât blame you for being upset,â he said after an interval of brief, throbbing silence. âBut we still need to talk.â
âHow did you know I was here?â
âI guessed.â
âLiar.â
âAll right, I drove by after I dropped Allison off at home, and I saw your car in the parking lot at Bertâs.â
âWhere are you?â
âStanding at the bottom of the stairway, trying to work up the nerve to come up and knock on your door.â
âDonât,â I said.
âMoje, we need to talkâ about us, about lots of stuff. But today itâs all about Gillian. Iâm not planning to jump your bones, I promise.â
âOkay,â I heard myself say, taking him at his word. In fact, Tucker was about as easy to resist as a tsunami. âCome up, then. The doorâs open.â
Tucker rang off, and I heard him double-timing it up the outside stairs.
I replaced the cordless phone on its base, stood, straightened the black dress Iâd borrowed from Greerâit was the same one Iâd worn to Lillianâs funeral, not that long agoâand smoothed my wild red hair, which was trying to escape from the clip holding it captive at the back of my head.
âYou should have locked the door,â Tucker said, standing just inside my door in the tiny entry hall. Heâd shed his suit coat, but he was still wearing the dark slacks, a crisp white shirt and a tie, the knot loosened. He looked like some next-dimension version of himself, just slightly off.
âAs far as I know,â I replied circumspectly, keeping my distance, ânobody is trying to kill me.â
âHey,â he said with a bleak attempt at a grin, âgiven your history, that could change at any moment.â
âLetâs have coffee,â I said, turning toward the kitchen. I needed a table between us if we were going to talk about Gillian, and something to do with my hands. âWith luck, it hasnât been poisoned since I was here last.â
Tucker followed me through the living room.
I felt a pang, missing Russell, a very alive basset hound, and my equally dead cat, Chester. Russell was in Witness Protection with his people, and Chester, after haunting me for a while,
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