fingers, expecting him to start using sign language so Iâll know what my teacher is asking me. Itâs what we do for each other. We sign.
But Coltâs not paying attention to me. Heâs staring out the window himself.
âEllie?â Miss Hernandez says again.
I clear my throat. Colt doesnât even turn around.
âI think you better stay in for recess. I can explain the assignment for you then.â
âYes, Miss Hernandez.â My teacher doesnât act mad like other teachers would. I feel bad that I wasnât paying attention. But if Colt had helped me like usual, everything would have been okay.
Thanks a lot, Colt.
3
Fight
Halfway through recess time, when the rest of the class is outside, Miss Hernandez lets me take a bathroom break. On the way back to my classroom, I pass Ethanâs room.
I stop outside his open door. I canât help spying on him. Ethanâs teacher, Mrs. Edwards, has the big classroom map pulled down. Sheâs talking about the states next to Missouri. But it doesnât look like the second graders care. Most of the kids are whispering to each other. Some are laughing or trying not to.
Except Ethan. Ethanâs chair is the only one in the back row. His tutor, Mr. Hatt, is standing next to him, signing. Ethan glances from Mr. Hattâs fingers to the map and back again. My deaf brother seems to be the only one who is listening.
I walk back to my classroom and whisper to God, âPlease give my brother a good friend. Ethan would make anybody a great best friend.â
Thinking about best friends makes me think of Colt. And that gets me angry all over again. He had to know our teacher was asking me to name the president from Missouri. I knew the answer too: Harry S. Truman. All Colt had to do was sign the question. After all, didnât I get him out of trouble with the flying invitations?
All morning I try to catch Coltâs attention. But he wonât look at me. At lunch he sits at a table with Dylan and Brooks and Nick. He doesnât even come over and say hi to Rashawn, Cassie, and me.
âGive it up, Ellie,â Larissa says. She and Ashley plop down across from me.
âGive what up?â I ask.
âColt. I see you looking over at his table.â
âSo?â
âSo,â she says, plucking a fry from Cassieâs plate, âColt might have been your buddy when you were younger. That doesnât mean he still is. People change.â
âYou donât know what youâre talking about, Larissa,â I say. But inside, I wonder if sheâs right.
* * *
After school I wait outside for Colt. We almost always walk home together. Even when heâs meeting the guys on the ball field after school, Colt and I usually walk that far together. Then I go on home.
I wait until the school yard empties. No Colt. He must have run out of the building before I even made it to the hall.
I need to talk to him. I canât stand feeling like this. Maybe I did something that made him mad at me. I try to think what it could be.
Then I get an idea. What if Colt is jealous about Dream? What if heâs upset because I got a horse and he still doesnât have one? For years weâve both wanted a horse. We talked about having our own horses and going on long rides together. Now I have one. And he doesnât.
Why didnât I think of this before?
Iâm almost to the ball field when I spot Colt. Heâs sitting alone on the curb across from the field.
âColt!â I take off running. This is my chance. Colt can act funny when other guys are around. IÂ get that. He doesnât want them to tease him about me being his girlfriend or anything. Weâre definitely not that. But we are friends.
Colt doesnât look at me until I sit down on the curb next to him. When he finally turns my way, his sour frown makes me feel like my nose has turned into a giant snail.
âWe need to talk,â I