myself for admitting this, you might be right about some of the things you said. The thought of your moving away, if only for a short time, is like having part of myself amputated, but I think itâs probably right for both of us.â She smiled. âNot for forever, I hope, but for a while maybe.â She hesitated. âThe thought of being here by myself scares the shit out of me and that makes no sense. Weâre two independent women.â
âWho are closer than most women ever get.â Jenna picked up her mug and sipped her now cold coffee, flopped back onto the sofa, and propped one ankle on the other knee. She and her sister had made a concerted effort to develop different friendships during college, worried that they were becoming almost clones of each other. âDo you remember Chloe Whitman?â
She watched as Marcy flipped through her mental filing cabinet. âSure. She was in our undergraduate class in Albany. I didnât really know her but you and she were pretty close for a while as I recall. Chloe Whitman. All I remember about her is that she was tiny, with huge brown eyes. I always thought she looked like one of those Keene paintings of the kids whose faces were all eyes.â
âThatâs her. Pretty quiet, with a few girlfriends, myself included. God, the guys used to go crazy, wanting to protect her, spoil her, but she kept pretty much to herself. Anyway, Chloe and I have kept in touch over the years. We had dinner together several times when I was in New York City on business.
âShe e-mailed me about six months ago that her aunt had died and left her a brownstone in Manhattan. She said that she was living there with lots of empty space and invited me to visit sometime. I just got off the phone with her. I asked about staying with her for a while, and she jumped at it. She even looked in the Sunday paper while we talked and found an ad for a temp agency specializing in translators.â She took a deep breath. âShe invited me to move in as soon as I can spring myself from AAJ.â
âOh, God, Jen,â Marcy said, her eyes filling. âItâs so fast. My brain says itâs the right thing for both of us, but my soul is bleeding.â
âI know, Sis,â Jenna said, wrapping her arms around her sister. âI know.â
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Marcy was in pain. Her sister was leaving and she felt as if she needed to mourn. No, that was stupid. Phones work two ways and weâll visit often. Anyway, sheâll be back. Wonât she? Marcy pushed any negative thoughts down and concentrated on the upside. Jenna was doing something so brave, something Marcy could never have done. She gazed at her twin and marveled at her ability to do something so momentous. Her sister had always been spontaneous, easy and relaxed about changes in plans. âYouâre really going to do this, arenât you?â she asked
âI am. I have to.â
âWhat about your job at AAJ?â
âIâm going to try to get a leave of absence but if they wonât do that, then Iâm going to quit.â
Marcyâs eyes widened. How could Jenna be like that? Marcy found herself envious. She would have been making out budgets, lists of pros and cons. It would have taken her weeks to make a decision. âWhat about all your friends, the bowling league, your library volunteering? What about all that? Youâll be leaving everything you know. What if you donât like Chloe in close quarters?â
Jenna chuckled and patted her sisterâs hand. âStop worrying, Sis. Iâve saved a bit of money over the years so I can be flexible. If I donât like it there I can move somewhere else, or I can come back home.â She grinned her most charming grin, one Marcy had succumbed to her entire life. âDonât rent out my room so fast.â
âSorry. I guess I do get carried away.â Marcy shook her head ruefully. âItâs just
Mary D. Esselman, Elizabeth Ash Vélez