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was reading a newspaper. It was spread out on his desk. It was not one of the newspapers I learned to speak your language from—
The Times
or the
Telegraph
or
The
Guardian.
No, this newspaper was not for people like you and me. There was a white girl in the newspaper photo and she was topless. You know what I mean when I say this, because it is your language we are speaking. But if I was telling this story to my big sister Nkiruka and the other girls from my village back home then I would have to stop, right here, and explain to them:
topless
does not mean, the lady in the newspaper did not have an upper body. It means, she was not wearing any
garments
on her upper body. You see the difference?
    —Wait. Not even a brassiere?
    —Not even a brassiere.
    —Weh!
    And then I would start my story again, but those girls back home, they would whisper between them. They would giggle behind their hands. Then, just as I was getting back to my story about the morning they let me out of the immigration detention center,those girls would interrupt me again. Nkiruka would say,
Listen, okay? Listen. Just so we are clear. This girl in the newspaper photo. She was a prostitute, yes? A night fighter? Did she look down at the ground from shame?
     
    —No, she did not look down at the ground from shame. She looked right in the camera and smiled.
    —What, in the newspaper?
    —Yes.
    —Then is it not shameful in Great Britain, to show your bobbis in the newspaper?
    —No. It is not shameful. The boys like it and there is no shame. Otherwise the topless girls would not smile like that, do you see?
    —So do all the girls over there show them off like that? Walk around with their bobbis bouncing? In the church and in the shop and in the street?
    —No, only in the newspapers.
    —Why do they not all show their breasts, if the men like it and there is no shame?
    —I do not know.
    —You lived there more than two years, little miss been-to. How come you not know?
    —It is like that over there. Much of my life in that country was lived in such confusion. Sometimes I think that even the British do not know the answers to such questions.
    —Weh!
    This is what it would be like, you see, if I had to stop and explain every little thing to the girls back home. I would have to explain linoleum and bleach and soft-core pornography and the shape-changing magic of the British one-pound coin, as if all of these everyday things were very wonderful mysteries. And very quickly my own story would get lost in this great ocean of wonders because it would seem as if your country was an enchanted federation of miracles and my own story within it was really very smalland unmagical. But with you it is much easier because I can say to you, look, on the morning they released us, the duty officer at the immigration detention center was staring at a photo of a topless girl in the newspaper. And you understand the situation straightaway. That is the reason I spent two years learning the Queen’s English, so that you and I could speak like this without an interruption.
    The detention officer, the one who was looking at the topless photo in the newspaper—he was a small man and his hair was pale, like the tinned mushroom soup they served us on Tuesdays. His wrists were thin and white like electrical cables covered in plastic. His uniform was bigger than he was. The shoulders of the jacket rose up in two bumps, one on each side of his head, as if he had little animals hiding in there. I thought of those creatures blinking in the light when he took off his jacket in the evening. I was thinking, Yes sir, if I was your wife I would keep my brassiere
on,
thank you.
    And then I was thinking, Why are you staring at that girl in the newspaper, mister, and not us girls here in the queue for the telephone? What if we all ran away? But then I remembered, they were
letting
us out. This was hard to understand after so much time.
Two years,
I lived in that detention center. I was