is happening?â
Little enough, I thought, gasping again with the pain of my thawing feet. Little enough sense. They had not heard me; my noise was lost in the sound of wind outside. Arlen smiled and sat on a barley bin, and Lonn sat beside him, looking commonplace next to his splendor.
âEven so, I must ask you yet once more to think,â said Lonn in that warm, steady way of his, and Arlen glanced at him in annoyance.
âDonât badger me, my good friend, please. Not this last night that is given us to share.â
âI must! Arlen, I cannot bear it. They will tie you up to that bloody tree, tie you with willow thongs and beat you until you faintââ
âI know,â said Arlen.
ââand then they will put out your eyes.â
Those incredible eyes. I shuddered and closed my own. I had not known it was to be so cruel.
âI know,â Arlen said sharply. âLonn, stop it.â
âI cannot,â said Lonn. âThen they will castrate you. And after the death blow you will be flayedââ
âSay no more, I tell you!â Arlen made a small, furious sound in his throat and sprang up, turning his back on Lonn, and patted several horses at random. I watched, seeing the anguish on his face, furious at Lonn in my turn.
âAnd then they will sever your joints,â said Lonn, very softly, âand gut you, and hack you apart, catching your blood in a silver basin, and they will sprinkle usââ He choked, unable to go on. Pitiful pain in his voiceâit was impossible any longer to be angry at him.
âWhy?â Arlen spoke without turning around. âWhy are you doing this to me? They have told us these things since we were striplings.â
âThey have told us so that we would not hear, not really know, not understandâhow horribleââ
Silence.
âArlen, go, flee,â Lonn said softly at last. âLive.â
Arlen turned back toward him, his face hard and fair, like a carving. âI would rather be dead than dishonored,â he said. âA cowardââ
âThere is no dishonor in putting an end to madness.â
âThe sacred rites of the goddess, madness?â For a moment Arlenâs green eyes blazed, but then he merely looked weary. âLonn, I have no desire to quarrel with you. Please.â
âAll right,â said Lonn stubbornly, meaning that it was not right at all. âIf honor is of such concern to you, then think of the girl, her honor. She will be bound to know no man but you, one hourâs wedlove in all her life and then celibacy. Suppose she has promised herself to a sweetheart? She is not here of her own will, any more than we are. Likely she will be foresworn.â
I could have laughed or cried. Me, a sweetheart, in sterile Stanehold, with father standing guard? Arlen must have thought something of the same sort, for he laughed out loud, mocking laughter yet not unmelodious.
âA daughter of that precious Rahv? Sheâll be black as a crow and hard as flint, not likely to care for any lover or honor either. Save your concern, Lonn.â
âBut I think she is not of corvine sort, Arl,â Lonn remarked with meaning in his glance.
âYouâve seen her? How in the many kingdoms did you manageââ
âI blundered in.â
Arlen sat down again, sighing and shaking his fiery head, and Lonn spoke on.
âShe is a gentle thing; I swear it from just my glimpse of her. No crow, Arl, for all that her hair shines black as the Naga. She seemed more likeâlike a dusky flower, a fragile blossom.â
I snorted. Perhaps they heard me and thought I was a horse.
âNot that she lacked spirit,â Lonn added hastily, as if I had reproached him. âShe looked ready to bolt. You have seen the panicky glance of a tethered yearling â¦? But no flinty shell, Arlen. Thisâthis horror, how is she to withstand it? What is to become of