espionage. On any given day, he shows up at school acting like a knight, an astronaut, or a spy. Who knows what heâll fix on next.
Sometimes I go with him, and other times we play at my house. Today Iâm too wrung out for any of it.
âItâs casino day,â I say, which is convenient because it means I need to go and check on Grammie.
Zachariah nods sagely. âIâll leave you to it, then,â he says, offering the slightest formal bow. âMilady.â
The house is dim, not a lamp lit. I donât like the feel of it. I snap on the kitchen light and look toward the living room. Grammie is sprawled on the couch with her arm covering her eyes. I swallow hard. This can only mean one thing: a bad day downtown.
âGrammie?â
âElla? Hi, sugar.â She lies motionless. A bad, bad day.
Join the club, Grammie.
I flop onto the couch opposite her. Maybe sheâs hit on something that makes the icky feelings go away. I sprawl and cover my eyes. Itâs warm. Itâs dark. But I can still see everything. Hear everything. Feel everything.
I sit up. âWhatâs for dinner?â One of the things Grammie and I do together thatâs kind of fun is cook. Sheâsgot loads of recipes stored up in her brain. Doesnât even matter whatâs there in the kitchen. Grammie can whip up something out of nothing in no time at all. Egg roll spaghetti, taco lasagna, bean dip surprise. Weâve had a thousand and one whacked-out, spur-of-the-moment meals, never to be heard of again.
âOh, what does it matter?â she moans.
âWell, Iâm hungry, so . . .â
With that, Grammie snaps to. Sheâs off the sofa like a shot. âWell, of course you are, kiddo. Me too, nowâs you mention it.â
We troop into the kitchen. My stomach is clenched, like itâs storing up for one big growl. I grab a handful of grapes from the fruit bowl.
Grammie and I consider the options, our stocking feet side by side on the tile. We peer into the pantry, stare into the fridge, survey the countertops for anything inspiring.
âPizza or Chinese?â Grammie says finally.
âI feel more like pizza.â
âGood. Peel me a ten-spot off the wad and make the call.â
I order us a large cheese with sausage. We know from experience exactly how much to order so we can thrust a single bill at the delivery guy, tip included, and not have to mess with change. We hate asking for change because we donât like tolook chintzy, if we can help it. And letâs face it, sometimes we canât. But food delivery shouldnât be one of those times.
The pizza is guaranteed to come in thirty minutes or itâs free, so Grammie sets the oven timer. Weâve never won this game, but it passes the time.
âI think todayâs the day,â I say. Something eventually has to fall in my favor. Itâs just the odds.
âNah,â Grammie says. âI say he makes it just in time. Winner pays, loser pours.â
We shake hands. Then we sit across from each other at the table with plates, napkins, cups, and a bottle of raspberry seltzer all ready and waiting.
âHow much?â I ask.
âSeventy-two dollars down.â Grammie sighs. âSlots and roulette.â
I shake my head. âGotta learn to lay off the roulette.â
âDonât I know it, baby.â Grammie smacks the table. âDonât I know it.â Then itâs like she just snaps out of the funk.âWhatâs up with you?â she says, squinting. âYouâre looking like a barrel of fantastic yourself.â
âIâm fine.â
Grammie clucks her tongue the way only old people can. âFineâs no good.â Sheâs on her feet now, coming around the table. Zeroing in. She grabs my face.
I try to get away. âDonât look at me.â
âWhere am I supposed to look?â
I lick her hand. For lack of anything else to do,