delicate features, a long neck and a rather nearsighted gaze, so she reminds you a bit of a giraffe. She looks down her nose at you, sheâs totally full of herself and really, really dumb, which would be quite funny if she wasnât around so much. Envious, super competitive, always ready to complain. Aggressive, but in a very feminine way, roundabout and insidious. The remarks she makes are usually wounding, but not openly so: the punch in the jaw that she seems to be asking for the whole time wouldnât look justified to a bystander.
In Gloriaâs view, this girl is only hanging around because she regards them all as provincial hicks, among whom she can easily shine. Reigning, even if itâs only over pigs and chickens, is still reigningâthe sad duty of a slightly shopworn princess.
Gloria and Vanessa exchange smiles of overwhelming hypocrisy every time they meet. Broad, murderous smiles.
For the moment though, everyone finds this bimbo really nice , interesting, and charming. With her determined little expression and her calculating ways. Gloria knows she just has to wait. The Vanessas of this world donât last long. Youâve got to have a bit more upstairs to be a girl that people really remember.
But in the twenty years sheâs known Michel, itâs the first time things have taken this unwelcome turn. Heâs never stayed so long with a girlfriend without covertly starting to find fault with her. He falls in love often, quickly puts the girl on a pedestalâbut it has an eject button.
You need to watch it , Gloria tells herself anxiously, because people can change, when you least expect it. You know them so well, youâre used to them, you donât spot when the day comes they canât take it anymore, you donât necessarily realize . But now, apparently, Michel is fed up with being on his own. So heâs closed down a section of his brain, the one that tells him what this girl is like: a château-bottled bitch.
Gloria, chin on hand, elbow on the table, is humming a France Gall song: â Laisse tomber les filles, laisse tomber les filles / un jour câest toi quâon laissera â (âGive up on the chicks, give up on the chicks / Next time around youâll be in the fixâ).
Michel finishes his beer, elbow in the air, flexes his neck with ease, stands up, and takes Gloriaâs glass with his own.
âSame again?â She nods with a sniff, sheâs in no position to refuse.
Then he stops, saying nothing, gazing out at the street, and searches for words, before saying without looking her in the eye, âYouâre sure you donât want to try . . .â
âA shrink? Are you nuts?â
âYou canât carry on like this.â
âYes I can.â
She pretends to think itâs funny, but her eyes are stinging and sheâd like to put her head on the table and cry, or bash her forehead in. She swallows, forces herself to reject the thoughts that arise, and looks once more at the TV listing. Sheâs choking with rage, her heart is pounding irregularly. Once more, that image, very clear in her head: someone puts a barrel of a gun to the back of her neck and pulls the trigger. A release.
Sheâd like to go back in time three months, to the days when Lucas used to follow her in the street after every fight, when he didnât want to let her go, when he loved her at whatever the cost. When she felt herself desired.Sheâd like to go back three months and sleep with him tonight, have him feel for her feet with his in his sleep, as he used to.
Michel sits down again and asks: âSo what was it about this time?â
âHe installed AOL on my computer.â
âAnd?â
âIâd asked him not to.â
âSo?â
âI trashed the place.â
âReally? I mean you just saw heâd installed AOL and you smashed everything up?â
âExactly. I picked up the computer