And we are on our knees, dying. The Confederacy canât hold out much longer, and who knows, maybe God Himself is speaking. General Sherman ripped Atlanta apart, and thankfully Savannah surrendered before being burned to the ground, as well. Since Gettysburg, our victories have been small and sadly sparse.â
Tara drew her knees to her chest and hugged them. âYes,â she said softly. âI can read very well,â she assured him.
âThe death toll is ungodly.â He might well have been sadly informing himself.
âI knowâ¦â She waved a hand in the air. âI know the tragedy of the whole situation, and all the logic. Grant is grabbing immigrants right off the ships and throwing them into the Union forces. The North has the manufacturingâand what they didnât have, they seized. Theyâre in control of the railroads, and whenthe South rips them up, they have the money and supplies to repair them, and we donât. Leeâs army is thread-bare, shoeless, down on ammunition and, half the time, scrounging desperately for food. I know all that, Richard. Like you, Iâd hoped that there wouldnât be a war, and that most people with any sense would realize that it wouldnât simply be a massive cost in life for all of us.â
She looked at Richard, pain and passion in her eyes. âI think about you, and my friends fighting for the South. And I think about Hank Manner, the kind young Yankee at the fort who helped old Mrs. Bartley when her carriage fell over. Richard, the concept of any of you shot and torn and bleeding is horrible. North and South, weâre all human beings.â She winced. âWell, you know what I mean. Hank is a good man, a really good man.â She was quiet for a moment, and then added softly, âI think Iâm just grateful. It really is all over. I just donât know why we keep fighting.â
âHuman beings. Yes, as you saidâitâs the human beast,â Richard said, shaking his head as he looked out to the sea. âMen canât accept defeat. It hits us at some primal level, and we just about have to destroy everything, including ourselvesâ¦?.â
âSo, it may go on. Please, Richardâ¦?â
âThe war will go on,â he said harshly. âAnd it will be chaos while itâs still being settled, and, God knows, far worse after!â
âYou canât understand this urgency I feel,â she told him.
He gripped her hands. âTara, it makes no sense! Whyin hell are you worried about Abraham Lincoln? Heâs been elected, again. Heâll be inaugurated soon, again. Heâll be the conquering hero of the United States. What, are you crazy? There are professional military guards who worry about his safety, friends who watch over him. And Pinkerton guardsâ¦â
âHe surely canât imagine the amount of enemies he must have.â
âBut, Taraââ Richard began, and then he just shook his head and went silent with frustration.
She smiled, touching his face tenderly. Theyâd known each other so long. She almost smiled, thinking about how most of the people they knew couldnât understand why they hadnât married. But, of course, they could never marry. They were closer than a sister and a brother. They had grown up as outcasts whoâd had to prove themselves, even to survive in the bawdy, salvaging, raw world of Key West, where nationalities mingled with the nationless pirates, and, yes, where the War of Northern Aggression went on, though most often as idle threats and fists raised to the sky. At Fort Zachary Taylor, the Union troops died far more frequently from disease than from battle, though Union ships ever tightened their grip on the blockade. Beer, wine, rum, Scottish whiskey and all manner of alcohol ran rich at the taverns. Fishermen mingled with the architects of the fine new houses, and only at night, behind the wooden walls
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