Big Girls Drama Read Free

of the examination table as hard as I could. I think I was trying to hold on. Was I trying to hold on so I wouldn’t hit the floor? Was I holding on for hope for better news? Or was I gripping this table so tightly because I felt a rage build within me that I’d never experienced before. Whatever, none of this was good.
    I looked at Dr. Hoffman waiting for her to drop the next misfortune on me. She took this as her cue to proceed.
    â€œWith you being diagnosed with Chlamydia, I suspect you could also have a condition known as PID.”
    I frowned as I asked, “What is PID?”
    The doctor smiled warmly before saying, “I’m sorry for using abbreviations. PID stands for pelvic inflammatory disease. It’s an infection of your female reproductive organs.”
    â€œIs it serious?” I asked frantically.
    â€œIt can be. This condition could lead to irreversible damage to your uterus, fallopian tubes, and other parts of your female reproductive organs.”
    â€œSo this could be why I have been having this pain?”
    â€œThe pain could stem from this or the fact you have this STD,” she answered. “More likely than not, I think it’s the beginning stages of PID.”
    â€œYou said there could be damage to my female organs. Does this mean it could affect me having children?” I asked fearfully.
    â€œUnfortunately, yes.”
    And there was The Catastrophe. I sucked in a breath, shocked at her answer.
    â€œIn many cases, women who get this condition become infertile,” she responded honestly.
    I began to weep. I couldn’t take this news. I’d rather hear my husband was cheating than the fact his deceitful actions could have affected my chances of ever having children.
    My doctor rolled her chair closer to me and began rubbing my leg lovingly.
    â€œI can’t believe this. I thought my marriage was great, but I guess I was wrong, especially if he’s cheating.”
    â€œPlease understand I’m not saying you have PID, but unfortunately, the signs are there. What I want to do now is do further testing.”
    â€œI’ll do anything. I want to have children.”
    â€œOkay. I’ll send you to the lab today to have blood drawn to see if there is evidence of an infection. Then I’ll set up another appointment for you to have an ultrasound done to have your reproductive organs examined. I’ll see if they can get you in as soon as possible. These things will let us know the severity of your condition. Once I have your results, I’ll give you a call to come in for your findings.”
    I nodded, feeling numb to all of this. Jeffrey promised me he wouldn’t cheat on me again. So not only did I have the burden of knowing my husband was back to his old tricks again, I had to deal with the revelation I was infected with an STD that could possibly ruin my chances of ever having children.
    â€œI’ve sent over a prescription to start treatment for the STD, but please understand, if you continue to sleep with your husband who’s not being treated, then you are taking the medication in vain.”
    Oh, she didn’t have to worry about me ever sleeping with him again. This news was the wake-up call I needed. As much as I wished I’d never come to see my doctor, I knew it was in my best interest to do so, in more ways than one. Just like that, my entire world was ripped from under me again. I never should have trusted him. I should have left when he stepped out on our marriage the first time. Hell, the second and third time! But I loved him enough to give him chance after chance. Shame on me for making such a terrible decision, because now, my choices could have affected my chances of ever having children.

Vivian
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    I found this cute upscale boutique I’d wanted to come to ever since I’d moved here and decided today was the day I should go and see what they had to offer. I wasn’t in the shop five minutes