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left-center. It’s hard to explain, but on contact, I felt nothing. It’s one of the best feelings in the world.
    Life in the Hamilton household revolved around family and baseball. You couldn’t tell where one started and the other stopped — not on a dare.
    I wasn’t a bad student, but given the choice between playing ball and memorizing parts of speech, I wanted the ball.
    It was a family tradition. My parents, Linda and Tony, met at a ballpark. My daddy was warming up for a softball game on one diamond while my momma was playing a game on a field next to him. He looked over once and saw her hit a ball about fifty feet beyond the left-field fence, and everyone on his team just shook their heads and pointed to the spot where the ball landed. The next time up, the same thing happened, except the ball went even farther.
    At this point, my daddy had seen enough. He walked over to her field and told someone, “I’ve got to meet that girl.” He did, and within weeks they were dating and before long they were married.
    My father grew up on his family’s hog and chicken farm in Oxford, North Carolina, about forty miles north of our house in a rural area west of Raleigh. Momma grew up in the house next door to us, on the same piece of property about fifty yards away from our front door.
    Like everyone in this part of the world, we were surrounded by pine forests. To this day, I know I’m home more by the smell of those trees than anything else. Across the street there’s an old, small cemetery where we used to run around and hit baseballs or golf balls, maybe shoot our BB guns. Five or six years ago someone was buried in an old family plot, but when I was growing up there wasn’t much action there. Down the road a huge piece of land is owned by North Carolina State University, and our favorite fishing hole was on it, not more than a three-minute walk from the house.
    We were never more than a mile from a good fishing hole.
    It was a good childhood. We weren’t rich, but I don’t think we knew that. I don’t think Jason and I knew what rich was. We played ball and went to school and pretty much had the run of the place. We hung out as a family and didn’t see much need to go out, even as we reached high school age. We were pretty content in our little corner of the world. We had everything we needed.
    My grandmother on my mother’s side lived right next door to us, in the same house my momma grew up in. This was the place Bro and I went to be spoiled with cookies and ice cream and grilled-cheese sandwiches. Mary Holt is an old-fashioned southern lady, more of a friend than an authority figure. My nickname from the time I started playing baseball was “Hambone” and I called Granny “Grambone.” If we got in trouble at home, we’d always find our way over to Granny’s house to escape. Whatever we had done to get in trouble didn’t seem like such a big deal to her. She was the safe haven, and it was a role she enjoyed. I think she had a soft spot for me because I was the youngest and I shared her name — Joshua Holt Hamilton.
    Granny never missed a ballgame. We didn’t make a conscious effort to invite her to the games; it was just understood that she would be ready to come with us when it was time to go. My games, Jason’s games — it didn’t matter. She was there. Before every game, for good luck, I would walk over to where Granny and my momma were sitting and give each of them a kiss on the cheek.
    From the time we started playing baseball, one of the major lessons we learned in our family was to respect the game. And a big part of respecting the game was respecting the people you play with and against. My daddy went out of his way to make sure he wasn’t favoring his sons on the baseball field, and since I always wanted to please him and my teammates, I usually packed up all the gear after practices and cleaned the dugout after games.
    My ability drew more attention to me, but I always put pressure on