Bear and His Daughter Read Free

between them. She used Camille’s telephone to alert him.
    “Frank,” she said to the priest, “we have some children.”
    He gave her silence in return.
    “Hello, Frank,” she said again. “Did you hear me, Father? I said we have some children.”
    “Yes,” said Hooke, in what Mary was coming to think of as his affected tone, “I certainly heard you the first time. Tonight is … difficult.”
    “Yes, it surely is,” Mary said. “Difficult and then some. When will you expect us?”
    “I’ve been meaning,” Hooke said, “to talk about this before now.”
    He had quoted Dame Julian to her. “All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well.” Those were lines he liked.
    “Have you?” she inquired politely. “I see. We can talk after the interment.”
    “You know, Mary,” Father Hooke said with a nervous laugh, “the bishop, that pillar of intellect, our spiritual prince, has been hearing things that trouble him.”
    Mary Urquhart blushed to hear the priest’s lie.
    “The bishop,” she told him, “is not a problem in any way. You are.”
    “Me?” He laughed then, genuinely and bitterly. “I’m a problem? Oh, sorry. There are also a few laws…”
    “What time, Father? Camille works for a living. So do I.”
    “The thing is,” Father Hooke said, “you ought not to come tonight.”
    “Oh, Frank,” Mary said. “Really, really. Don’t be a little boy on me. Take up your cross, guy.”
    “I suppose,” Hooke said, “I can’t persuade you to pass on this one?”
    “Shame on you, Frank Hooke,” she said.

    The drive to the clean outer suburbs led through subdivisions and parklands, then to thick woods among which colonial houses stood, comfortably lighted against the winter night. Finally there were a few farms, or estates laid out to resemble working farms. The woods were full of frozen lakes and ponds.
    The Buick wagon Mary drove was almost fifteen years old, the same one she had owned in the suburbs of Boston as a youngish mother driving all the motherly routes, taking Charles Junior to soccer practice and Payton to girls’ softball and little Emily to play school.
    The fetuses were secured with blind cord in the back of the station wagon, between the tarp and the curtain in which Camille had wrapped them. It was a cargo that did not shift or rattle and they had not tried to put a crucifix on top. More and more, the dark countryside they rode through resembled the town where she had lived with Charles and her children.
    “Could you say the poem?” Camille asked. When they went on an interment Camille liked to hear Mary recite poetry for her as they drove. Mary preferred poetry to memorized prayer, and the verse was always new to Camille. It made her cry, and crying herself out on the way to an interment, Mary had observed, best prepared Camille for the work at hand.
    “But which poem, Camille?”
    Sometimes Mary recited Crashaw’s “To the Infant Martyrs,” or from his hymn to Saint Teresa. Sometimes she recited Vaughan or Blake.
    “The one with the star,” Camille said. “The one with the lake.”
    “Oh,” Mary said cheerfully. “Funny, I was thinking about it earlier.”
    Once, she could not imagine how, Mary had recited Blake’s “To the Evening Star” for Camille. It carried such a weight of pain for her that she dreaded its every line and trembled when it came to her unsummoned:
Thou fair-hair’d angel of the evening,
Now, whilst the sun rests on the mountains, light
Thy bright torch of love; thy radiant crown
Put on, and smile upon our evening bed!
    It had almost killed her to recite it the first time, because that had been her and Charles’s secret poem, their prayer for the protection that was not forthcoming. The taste of it in her mouth was of rage unto madness and the lash of grief and above all of whiskey to drown it all, whiskey to die in and be with them. That night, driving, with the dark dead creatures at their back, she