did this happen? Regretting it after is a shitty thing to do but these feelings are weighing me down. Tracy is silent, and I’m not sure why. I look over and see her sitting on the edge of the bed pulling on her thong and dress. My heart is aching and I have this tight knot in my stomach.
What is going on with me?
Looking over at Tracy, my heart starts fluttering with excitement. She’s so gorgeous and sexy. I’ve never had these types of feelings toward someone before and I’m beginning to shit myself. Do I want a relationship? I’ve never had one, and I’m not ready for one. I love women, and my life is great the way it is. Tracy is a stranger to me really. This is the first time I’ve met her and I’m feeling something? How can that be?
I’m so confused right now and I’m not sure what to do. I have to get out of this room and get as far away from these feelings as possible. Pulling on my shirt, I quickly button it up.
“I’m going to…uh…go.” Looking over at her, I see that Tracy is dressed and looking at me with a frown on her face.
“But this is your room?”
I can’t look her in the eyes as I’m afraid of what I’ll see.
“Uh…yeah, I know. But I…uh, need to get back to the reception.”
“Okay,” she whispers. As I walk to the door, I don’t look back. “I will see you down there?” Grabbing the door handle, I quickly glance back over my shoulder. She looks so vulnerable and small while she waits for me to reply.
“Uh…yeah…sure.” I open the door and disappear down the hall feeling shitty for leaving her like that, but I can’t control this incredible need to be with her and protect her. My heart is aching to be near her. Feeling this way after having a one night stand with her, is extremely strange. And yeah, it’s unbelievable and the way she reacted to me, it was like she was made for me and only me, but I’m not what she needs, wants or what she deserves.
Making my way back to the wedding marquee, I spot Joshua and Annabelle dancing. I ignore everyone else and walk straight up to the bar. Parking myself on a bar stool and ordering a Jack Daniels, I’m planning on spending the rest of the night getting trashed and trying not to think about the beautiful, smart, sexy woman, I’ve just ditched in my bedroom.
He left? I can’t believe he just left. We’re not in love or in a relationship or anything, but how could he be so cold. I’ve had many hookups in my time, I’ve been to some crazy parties and slept with countless men, some I never even knew their names, but I’ve never had this happen.
Growing up as an only child, my parents were very hard on me and only wanted what was best for me. I was required to always dress in a certain way. My mother would always make sure that I was wearing the appropriate clothing for the function we were attending and I was never allowed to go parties or anything like that. Actually tell a lie, I did used to go for afternoon tea with a few of my private school ‘friends.’ They weren’t exactly proper friends, and my mom was the one that introduced them to me, but they were the only people my mom approved of and was happy for me to socialize with.
My father was a smart businessman and was always away on business trips. I’m not very close to him because he was never there, and it’s hard to be close to someone that’s in and out of my life so much.
When I left home for college, I was glad to get away from them and meeting Annabelle was a highlight. We were best friends from the minute we met. Annabelle was my roommate, and we had so many great times. Going to college was my way of finally being free to do what I wanted. I rebelled a bit with the amount of partying and drinking I was doing. Surprisingly moving to Los Angeles and working for QD Fashion has made me incredibly busy, and I don’t have the time to party as much as I used to. I’m beginning to think that it’s a good thing.
QD Fashion is a big company
What is going on with me?
Looking over at Tracy, my heart starts fluttering with excitement. She’s so gorgeous and sexy. I’ve never had these types of feelings toward someone before and I’m beginning to shit myself. Do I want a relationship? I’ve never had one, and I’m not ready for one. I love women, and my life is great the way it is. Tracy is a stranger to me really. This is the first time I’ve met her and I’m feeling something? How can that be?
I’m so confused right now and I’m not sure what to do. I have to get out of this room and get as far away from these feelings as possible. Pulling on my shirt, I quickly button it up.
“I’m going to…uh…go.” Looking over at her, I see that Tracy is dressed and looking at me with a frown on her face.
“But this is your room?”
I can’t look her in the eyes as I’m afraid of what I’ll see.
“Uh…yeah, I know. But I…uh, need to get back to the reception.”
“Okay,” she whispers. As I walk to the door, I don’t look back. “I will see you down there?” Grabbing the door handle, I quickly glance back over my shoulder. She looks so vulnerable and small while she waits for me to reply.
“Uh…yeah…sure.” I open the door and disappear down the hall feeling shitty for leaving her like that, but I can’t control this incredible need to be with her and protect her. My heart is aching to be near her. Feeling this way after having a one night stand with her, is extremely strange. And yeah, it’s unbelievable and the way she reacted to me, it was like she was made for me and only me, but I’m not what she needs, wants or what she deserves.
Making my way back to the wedding marquee, I spot Joshua and Annabelle dancing. I ignore everyone else and walk straight up to the bar. Parking myself on a bar stool and ordering a Jack Daniels, I’m planning on spending the rest of the night getting trashed and trying not to think about the beautiful, smart, sexy woman, I’ve just ditched in my bedroom.
He left? I can’t believe he just left. We’re not in love or in a relationship or anything, but how could he be so cold. I’ve had many hookups in my time, I’ve been to some crazy parties and slept with countless men, some I never even knew their names, but I’ve never had this happen.
Growing up as an only child, my parents were very hard on me and only wanted what was best for me. I was required to always dress in a certain way. My mother would always make sure that I was wearing the appropriate clothing for the function we were attending and I was never allowed to go parties or anything like that. Actually tell a lie, I did used to go for afternoon tea with a few of my private school ‘friends.’ They weren’t exactly proper friends, and my mom was the one that introduced them to me, but they were the only people my mom approved of and was happy for me to socialize with.
My father was a smart businessman and was always away on business trips. I’m not very close to him because he was never there, and it’s hard to be close to someone that’s in and out of my life so much.
When I left home for college, I was glad to get away from them and meeting Annabelle was a highlight. We were best friends from the minute we met. Annabelle was my roommate, and we had so many great times. Going to college was my way of finally being free to do what I wanted. I rebelled a bit with the amount of partying and drinking I was doing. Surprisingly moving to Los Angeles and working for QD Fashion has made me incredibly busy, and I don’t have the time to party as much as I used to. I’m beginning to think that it’s a good thing.
QD Fashion is a big company
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