correspond with you.â
Unreasonably, I lashed out with anger that had built up for the last few months, ever since we found out that the scumbag had given Sandy HIV. âI donât know what sort of a religious order wonât let their initiates talk to people for two freaking months! Thatâs just wrong!â
âItâs not wrong for them, and I can understand that they want us to focus on healing without outside distractions.â Another pause. âLorina.â
âWhat?â I snapped, alternately wanting to slam down the phone and burst into tears.
âBe happy. And hopeful. I am.â
âItâs not right,â I said, slumping back in my chair, the anger draining out of me and leaving me as limp as a three-day-dead cod. âWe should be going after him for what he did.â
âVengeance is mine? No, sweetie, I canât. But I have written to him telling him whatâs happened.â
âAnd how did he take it?â
She was silent for a few seconds, then admitted, âHe said . . . he said some pretty harsh things, as a matter offact. Threatening me if I said anything about it to anyone, and . . . well, he was quite abusive about it. Iâll admit it was ugly, but you know, Lorina, people strike out like that when theyâre hurting, especially if they know theyâre guilty of harming someone else.â
âOh, come on! Paul doesnât give a damn for anyone but Paul, and you know it.â
âI do not know that. He is basically a decent manâheâs just had some bad breaks, and chosen to go down a path that isnât, perhaps, the wisest.â
âI have no problem with him making his own hellâmy objection is the way heâs dragged you into it as well.â
âWe all have to take responsibility for our actions, myself included,â she said softly. âI am at peace with my decisions, and have to trust that Paul will rectify his ways and seek help.â
I said nothing, knowing that it was of no use. Weâd had
that
argument all too often in the past. âSo this is it, then? I lose the best friend and roomie a girl ever had without a backward look?â
âThatâs not fair,â Sandy chided. âLorinaââ
âItâs OK,â I lied, making an effort to send her off with a smile, not that she could see it. âIâm just being hormonal and cranky and sorry for myself because Iâll have to spend my free time interviewing a new roommate, and you know Iâd rather hack off my arm with a grapefruit knife than do that.â
âThen take off and go do something fun. You deserve a break after looking after me for the last five months. Thereâs a dig in Egypt that I know needs volunteers.â
âSandy Fache,â I said sternly. âThe very last thing I would ever think of doing is going to an archaeological dig.â
âWhy not? You were jealous every time I went off to one, or at least you claimed to be.â
âI would think the answer would be obvious,â I said with more than a little acid.
âBecause of Paul? Pfft.â She dismissed that objection. âHeâs just one man, and there are a lot of digs you could volunteer for this summer. I heard from Mom that thereâs even going to be one at Aliceâs castle.â
âWho, now?â
âAlice, my foster sister. You met her once or twice when she came to see me at college.â
âI vaguely remember her. Didnât she leave right after that?â
âYeah, not long after. Sheâs about half a year younger than me, and when she hit eighteen, the foster system kicked her out into the world. Weâve kept in touch over the years, although mostly just via Christmas cards. Anyway, she married a baron a couple of months ago.â
âLike a land baron? A tycoon?â
âNo, silly.â Sandyâs chuckle was warm and just hearing